PETERmode.

Hey hey~ to all my single lovers out there.

2012-02-14T01:23:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines? love yourself first? ...lol...so corny.

Anna Howard Shaw (February 14, 1847 – July 2, 1919) was a leader of the women's suffrage movement in the United States. She was also a physician and the first ordained female Methodist minister in the United States. Her birthday is celebrated as Anna Howard Shaw Day, as an alternative to St. Valentine's Day. --Wikipedia

Short entry. I'm kind of freezing and I have a paper due on my birthday so I want to finish it before the actual day. It's suppose to be about critiquing some theories about how East Asian economies grew so fast and I'm just going to ramble about how K-pop and stuff is the new age market for their economy nowadays. It started from innovating technology to now...invading our television. Genius? lol.

A bunch of people ditched my State and Local Government class today. It was sort of odd but I guess since it's sort of a government recognized holiday, they decided to take the day off too? It was also pretty windy today so it was especially chilly. I actually made use of the snood in my "Topman..'haul'" video today. It was totally stuffy when I was eating at McDonald's, in my car, or in class but it was useful when I wasn't in a building or car. Damn my poor circulation...I think I'll be wearing socks to sleep tonight.

I got my hair trimmed and it looks great styled and all but I feel like I look like a psychopath otherwise, so I wore a hat to school today...lol...it gave me extra warmth though.

Ummm...I registered for classes and looked at my progress towards graduation. I'm kind of forced to take these lower division classes because my university won't acknowledge certain classes as equivalents so I'll be spending next quarter at school during the day again. It's sort of a nay instead of a yay? I feel like I get more sleep and get more done with night classes but you do what you got to do. At least I'm blessed to have a job that adjusts to MY schedule. I do try to schedule it around their operating hours but sometimes it can't be done and they're nice enough to do that. Ah~ ♥. But anyway, I only have about 7 classes to take after next quarter to graduate. That's only like 3 quarters left and hopefully all the classes I need will be available. Not bad! I don't even care about walking across stage anymore. I just want to get done. Anna told me to go to Korea afterwards...not sure if that will come through but I might. Who knows. I don't want to go to Busan though...(that's where she is right now).

I'm trying to recap what I've done since last entry. I think my music is distracting me but Lisa's laptop was pretty much on it's last leg so I let her borrow mine for the time being. She treated me to dinner because of it but I'd pretty much do anything to help her anyway because she's been a friend that's stuck around ever since I met her. She's just an all around good person too so I'd give my all to help. We went to Class 302 as usual. I've lost count of how many times I've been there but judging by the frequency I go there, you know that it has some good ass food. You should already know too that their shaved ice just doesn't compare to anything else around. My god. lol. I've also been wanting jajjangmyun but it always ends up not crossing my mind because I'm never out early enough to eat at Lisa's favorite jajjangmyun joint or I'm craving something else.

Got some beef stew noodles (?) because it was sort of cold. This was alright...wouldn't really recommend it. It was good but not OMG DAYUMMM sort of thing.

Lisa got some corn on a cob appetizer and holy fuck! it was like eating flavorful meat but it was just corn LOL.

We ended up with these crappy seats really close to these other two girls towards the latter half of the night and no offense, but they were some pretty bratty sounding girls. I have no problem with minors or anything but I've always been a pretty mature kid so it gets on my nerves when people are so whiny and stuff. Maybe I'm bitter because I never went to prom and grad night and etc? I don't know haha...but whatever. The rest of our dinner ended up like this because we didn't feel like speaking.

Lol I can't believe it was dated February 1st and I didn't put this stuff in my entry dated February 5th. We're telepathic or share the same mind or something haha, I swear. The other day I went to this boba place and complained about how the girl finished my drink and called it from the other side of the store instead of walking it to me and she was like "I went there too! like an hour ago!" and I went around 30 minutes after that. lol.

Here's a creepy picture I took as I was heading home at almost 10pm. No one was around so I was even more compelled to take it. When I first was trying to figure out which building is which, I asked my friend which lecture hall this one was and he replied "it's the building that's shaped like a swastika" LOLL...It really does feel that way. bible.

After getting home from school that night, I came home to two packages!! One from Topman and one from Soompi!! It was so exciting HAHA. My mom was like you bought these? this one seems to be from Korea? and it was kind of hard to explain how I'm associated with the site.

I've never received a package from Korea before so it kind of explains my over excitement towards it too. There's also the fact that I got a bunch of masks, stationary, and snacks. Gah! melkim is so nice for sending it to me too because I've only been a mod for a little less than a month. ♥~!

I also got my 2nd Topman package. I think I've shown my first purchase before so I never took photos of the actual items. They're in the video but it's nothing much. Here's the other stuff I ordered.

Very fun red, preppy polo and a snood(?)/ infinity scarf.

Some tees I paid too much for...I don't usually spend over 10$ on a tee

I think that's all I wanted to show and say. Finally, in figuring out how to use my twitter. I stumbled upon this...and I'm pretty sure it's like...a scam or virus waiting to happen but it was just so funny to me LOL.

Geez girl...if that's what you call game, you gotta go back to playa' school or whatever the fuck. Do I look like I'm 14 or something? The tweets with just the @tags and then a link are also such an obvious thing to either get a virus or some cheap way to direct traffic to a website. Another thing that is kind of cool is all those random where the hell do you come from followers that follow you for like half a day and then disappear. Isn't that a lot of work? lol. I don't know. Twitter is getting kind of fun though. More reason to kill the battery on my phone and make use of my data heheheh.

I'm turning 23 on the 16th!! AHHHH @___@. It'll be the first year where my facebook won't be blasted with happy birthday messages because I hid all my information LOL.
Okay, going to shower and work on this paper. Goodnight.

Oh ah...since Whitney Houston has passed...I'll pay tribute by posting my favorite song of hers...which is closely followed by "I Have Nothing" and "The Greatest Love".

[Video] Topman stuffs.

2012-02-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

I suppose you can watch this if my pictures aren't enough...lol.
Trying to get out at least one video a week. The quarter is near ending so major assignments will be piling up...don't want to break this goal though! AHH!

Soompi Beauty Swap, Etude House Magic Bubble Peeling, and a Tag Videoo!

2012-02-05T05:58:00.000-08:00

Okay it's the butt crack of dawn basically and I did half my study guide for my midterm on Monday, so I'll just put this in really quick and go to bed. I'm gonna finish the rest when I'm up and hope for the best (as always...)!

I ordered some stuff from Missha and drugstore.com and I was kind of excited to try some of the stuff so I recorded three videos and spent my friday night recording and editing till dawn. I'm crazy. I literally felt bits and bits of my bodily functions shutting down and going to sleep mode as I was condensing my last video, lol.

Does my new angle make any difference? lol. I want to take my camcorder out and show you guys some stuff around metropolitan LA but that won't be for awhile. I want to do it when my hair grows out really long and I take metrorail to get my haircut. Right now, I'm just gonna have the sides trimmed and leave the top growing so I don't really need to go to a salon for that. ~ Zzzer.

I took out my "recent comments" widget on the side and replaced it with my twitter feed. If you ever used that widget to keep track of my comments, you can use blogger's "comment" section in the dash to see my reply to your reply. I'm still sort of learning how to use twitter though. I barely learned that the "connect" section on my twitter app is where I look to see if people directed any tweets towards me. I only have one follower though and I get these occasion bots or porn bots that follow me for awhile and then unfollow...lol. I'm just using it to ramble mostly. It's the stuff I don't want on my tumblr nor my facebook. Funny how I have all these outlets.

Okay! here are the videos.

My crappily made video trying to push for people to use the "beauty swap" topic. I know there are a bunch of you ghost readers! Watch as the background keeps moving around. LOL.

If you noticed that I bought the Etude House Magic Bubble Peeling, I made a video of it for those who are curious as to whether it is a good product to buy or not. I, for one, don't really like it. I forgot to mention that the "dead skin" that's rubbed off with this product is very white like the mousse which is part of why I come to believe that it doesn't work as well as a peeling gel would. I seriously think it's just the product drying up and then rubbing off! But who knows, there are probably people who like it. *shrug*

This is the "Get to Know Me" TAG video. Bandwagon-ed it because it looked fun from what I saw. I blabbered for like 16 minutes and ended up condensing it and applying to remove the time limit on YouTube. Aish! I actually dislike making such long videos because 15 minute videos in 720p end up around 700mb AND MY INTERNET AIN'T FAST. For awhile I was considering rooting my phone and tethering internet to upload because my phone's upload speeds are actually faster than my DSL. My phone is so weird though because you technically don't even need to root and you just use the PDAnet app but, when I tried it, it wouldn't frackin' find my phone. Damn my rebranded Huawei to Motorola phone...-___-.

As I mentioned already before, I got kind of product happy when I got my packages on Friday so I opened and tried my stuff after I bought some dinner. I bought some Milani stuff because apparently their stuff always has rave reviews so I wanted to try. I got the "easybrow" pencil in dark brown, infinite liquid eyeliner in unlimited/brown, and the "multitasker face powder" in tan. The eyeliner is pretty awesome because I have two other ones and they effing smudge on to my eyebags and eyelids because I have single eyelids and my skin, like, folds over? The other ones I have are the Maybelline "eye stylist" and that Revlon one that I can't find to know the exact name of. I just hate removing it because it is very smudge and water resistant. I use those makeup removing wipes over my eyes several times and then pond's cold cream on a q-tip to remove...so much work...

Initially, I was expecting to use the multitasker face powder to contour because the color I wanted from drugstore.com wasn't there and "tan" was the next closest one to my skin color. I'm glad it worked out and I like it! It's build-able to medium coverage and it's doesn't look caked on if you apply it multiple times. It's also suppose to absorb oil and reduce shine. I put my Physcian's Formula Conceal RX in Soft Yellow to conceal my ugly acne and that doesn't match my skin at all (you can see in my "guy's guide to natural looking BB cream" video). I only used the powder to even out the rest of my face and go over the concealer, and it blended over pretty well. It doesn't claim that it doesn't clog pores and stuff though. Hopefully it doesn't give me even more acne. As of now, it doesn't but I have acne either way.

Okay, I gotta stop typing. I might post another entry before Monday. I'm still waiting for my Topman package. I bought from them again and it didn't come as fast as the first time I ordered. I hope that it's coming next week and that no one stole my package from the royal mail!! T___T

[Video] How I Take Care of My Skin...and such.

2012-01-30T01:24:00.000-08:00

I guess I'll push that Chinese New Year video to the next page because I don't like the screenshot of it.
I'm revealing my true side to you all. Brace yourself. It is not pretty.

I can show product images here because I'm scared of my videos getting flagged, so you can get more details after the jump! I'm going to try and post quick because I want to get my exercise in before I go to bed.

I actually wanted to post two videos before the weekend was over but I'll have to wait until next week. I wanted to do the "get to know me" tag video because I saw my dutch sistaaa do it and it seemed fun after watching hers.
Besides the products I showed in the video, I'll probably repeat some but this is probably my ideal holy grail set of products. I've mentioned them before in previous entries but I can understand if it's hard to find because I don't tag my entries. (So sorry!)

Cleanser: A(n Asian) Foaming Cleanser

This one is around 6.40$ on SASA but there are other varies for around 4$. The cheap ones aren't listed online right now. The Homme one I mentioned in the video smells like the store "Hollister", just thought I'd throw that out. I would wash my face and find the smell is really similar. The peach one smells like candy. My eyes just go @_@ when I use it, haha. They're cheap and HUGE too, so totally worth the money. I don't like spending too much on cleanser because even if they claim to have special ingredients in them, you're essentially washing them away. I doubt it would absorb into the skin while you shower because I cleanse my face in the shower.

Toner: An AHA/BHA Toner

This is the cheapest thing I've found that fits what I want. This is the first thing I use right after I get out of the shower, then Benzoyl Peroxide, then moisturizer. That's it. AHA and BHA are chemical exfoliants but it's not super concentrated so it's okay for daily use. Guy skin is SUPPOSEDLY more resilient anyway, so I don't think there should be a problem. It's 7.99$ on drugstore.com, but it can be found at Walmart. I just like drugstore.com because I don't have to pay sales tax in California if I order from there.

Day Moisturizer: Preferably a moisturizer with at least SPF 30 in it along with some beneficial ingredients like Vitamin E or C

This is the cheapest one I've found. Unlike other moisturizers, it comes in a 4oz bottle which is more bang for the buck. I hate seeing moisturizers of the same price with only 1-1.5oz's. I totally feel jipped when I see those. It has SPF 15, Vitamin E, and BHA and it's 11.39$ on drugstore.com. I can't even find this in actual stores so I have to buy it from there. Another one that fits the description but is more expensive would probably be this.

This is from The Body Shop. It's has Vitamin C and SPF 30 but it's 1.69oz and 20$ a tube. It's also always out of stock online. I've also had bad experiences with going to the mall and hoping the store is aligned with online sales but their sales are very, like, sporadic. I'd see the sale online and go "Ok! going to the mall tomorrow and hope it's still going on" and then it's gone. Annoying. *feelings of bitterness towards the store*

There's also the Eucerin one for sensitive skin that has SPF 30 but it gives this gray cast.

It's 7-9$ and is 4oz, but it's basically lotion with sunscreen in it and nothing else.

Serum: Vitamin C Serum

This one is the most liked on drugstore.com. It's 20-25$ for 1oz of product. You'd use it after toner and before moisturizer, typically.

Night moisturizer:

Acne.org's one is the biggest bang for your buck. It moisturizes and has supposedly beneficial ingredients also. Here's the description from the acne.org site.

"Overly dry skin perpetuates the acne cycle. After using acne treatments, benzoyl peroxide in particular, it's important to properly rehydrate the skin. I made this generously sized, intensely hydrating, non-comedogenic lotion to eliminate dry skin and take care of flakiness completely, while powerfully soothing acne prone skin. It goes on clear and absorbs quickly, leaving no residue. It contains jojoba oil, has a super light feel, and is fragrance-free and dye-free."

It also has Licochalcone and what it is is explained here:
"Licochalcone gives this moisturizer its characteristic yellow color. It is also in the AHA+. Licochalcone is a highly distilled and potent extract of a species of licorice root well known for powerfully calming and soothing the skin. It is especially beneficial on acne-prone skin which tends to be sensitive and irritated. Licochalcone is incredibly expensive at $6000 per kilogram (about the weight of three baking potatoes), but you guys loved it so much in the AHA+ that I heard loud and clear that you wanted it included in the moisturizer as well. I agree with the suggestion and agree that its effects are worth the price. [Note: To avoid staining light colored clothing, allow moisturizer to absorb for 30 seconds or so before dressing.]"

I'm not too picky about a night moisturizer though. I'd just pick one I'd like, but the acne.org one is 24.19$ + shipping and CA tax (but buy via amazon if you want to avoid CA sales tax) for 16oz and it'll easily last for at least 6 months.

Acne Treatment: 2.5% Benzoyl Peroxide

It's also called Treatment if you buy it from acne.org. I haven't found any other item that's cheaper per oz than this one. I use to buy the Persa gel 10 from Clean and Clear but it was really expensive. 1oz for 5$ or so compared to 16oz for around 30$. If you watch the video, it doesn't keep my acne away too much but it's more of a preventative measure for me. It keeps your skin breathing and oxygenated so I wouldn't get even more. I never experienced any dryness but someone I know said she's experienced dryness with it. *shrug*

Exfoliators:

If you got money for the Cure Aqua Gel (40$), you can get that but I'm cheap so I'd rather get this. I've tried this already too and I really like it, so I'd recommend this. It's just a gel you pour on your hand and then run it on your face and when you keep rubbing in circular motions, you'll start to see dead skin cells rub off. It's pretty cool. If you get this, I don't think there's a need for the St. Ive's Apricot Scrub unless you switch off between then. I switch off between a scrub and a more gentler exfoliator (currently Etude House Magic Bubble Peeling) like the Missha one. It goes on sale on Missha's website for 12-14$. I never buy full price from Missha.

Sunscreen: You can use BB cream or Neutrogena Sheer Dry Touch
You can skip this if you aren't out much. You can just rely on the moisturizer because SPF 15 has around 1 or 2 hours of sun blocking before you start getting burned if you have sensitive skin , the L'oreal FUTUR-E moisturize blocks both UVA and UVB rays. I forget what's so bad about each. One is suppose to harm your skin and you'll see effects of it overtime (like in years) and the other one is the one that you get sunburns from, in short.

This is basically the essential stuff. The other things I use like makeup, BB cream, and stuff are just additional.
I'm no guru or scientist, by the way. This is just all I've found to be beneficial and learned over reading, time and time again.

Man this took forever. I hope this was helpful to anyone HAHA!
-Peter

I give love to others but I give myself hell.

2012-01-30T00:18:00.000-08:00

I somehow feel like things are falling apart even when I'm still in this positive notion of things. Hopefully things will get better because I feel like I'm the only person with a realistic vision of things. They're more on a personal matter though so I don't want to discuss it even though I use this as a platform to vent.

Ugh...I don't know.

Like my instagram-like picture?.

I can't seem to avoid cutting myself at work recently. It's what I get for having kids help me when I can do things myself. My workplace ran out of cute bandages too. No more Toy Story band aids for me anymore.

Feel free to skip over this entry because there won't be any pictures. This is mainly a vent.

I'm sure there are people who are in even much worse conditions than what I'm in, but I can't be the only one in this type of situation right? Basically my dad has been unemployed for, I believe, around two years now and my mom recently asked me if I read any negative news about American Apparel because she has a gut feeling she may be demoted or laid off.

I searched American Apparel in Google News earlier and saw mostly positive articles about the company and its sustainability, but that isn't always the case because what my mom is facing is internal and there is less known about how the company is surviving right now. My dad is basically working at his own pace, and that pace is REALLY INSANELY SLOW. The whole idea before this was that my dad wanted to essentially exhaust his unemployment benefits before even trying. As you may know, President Obama has fought long and hard to prolong unemployment for people to be able to pay their bills, so my dad has had three extensions of unemployment. A negative side effect of that, however, is the fact that people like my dad don't even try and rely on my mother to pay the bills. My brother, who's also an adult, doesn't even try hard enough to find a job and blames the fact that he doesn't have a car to be able to work. That argument isn't even justifiable because when I just graduated high school, I HAD to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to drive my mother to work just so that I'd be able to attend community college a couple hours later. Even when I had my first job, I didn't always have a car so I would walk home half the time. At my second job, I didn't even have my own car yet so I had my mom with me AND I had to pick up kids from school. That was so damn weird. We'd all get dropped off at my workplace and I had to take the bus home for at least a month. I've gone through SO much, and yet my brother can play League of Legends on his laptop and SIMULTANEOUSLY play PS3 on his desktop monitor? My dad has even gone to the race track to place bets on horses for the past couple weeks. WHAT THE FUCK! SO I HAVE TWO LAZY ASS FAMILY MEMBERS WHO CAN'T HELP IF THERE'S A POSSIBILITY THAT MY MOTHER EITHER GETS DEMOTED OR LAID OFF. If my mom does end up getting demoted, she'll be working only 2-3 days a week at 7.5 hours a day, which is pitiful. My dad is old, but he still has 4-6 years until retirement. He doesn't look really old either. I work a pitiful amount of hours compared to my mom so I'm not much of help. Part of me also feels bad because I should've graduated by now and I actually could be working full time somewhere. I have been giving her huge amounts of money in cash since I've felt obligated to pay her back since transferring schools because tuition costs are so much higher and I'm not fully covered by financial aid. I might be next year but I don't know...I might be done with school by then.

My mom was pretty on it when she quit her last job so I don't think she'll be out of work too long but my dad and brother are such disappointments to me. Isn't it ironic how I'm like the "adult" one in the household? Sometimes I feel like an education isn't worth it and I could help maintain the household if I just worked some shit full time job or something. I'm sitting here feeling obligated to do something about it. It's sad. Hopefully I'll be getting a good second source of income soon...like...months soon...I don't know.

The sort of sad thing is that my workplace isn't doing as well also. Since we opened a second location, the expenses has been much higher so they have to learn how to manage expenses and adjust the income accordingly. My bosses have been taking cuts on themselves so they wouldn't have to fire anyone and moving back in with their parents so they wouldn't have as much expenses. I do love my workplace though, I even told my boss once that he could hold my check if there aren't any funds at the moment. That's how down I am. I always seem to put others ahead of me. I think that's kind of the bad part of me. I don't know...

Oh~ the story of having super immigrant parents coming here with nothing, trying to have everything, and the chance at trying to have everything diminish.

Well yeah...rant over. I don't expect any cheerful replies or anything. I'm a strong grounded person and I swear, I'm not leaving anytime soon.

Only through pain will you find beauty.

2012-01-23T04:45:00.000-08:00

Only through suffering will you find peace.

Blerg. It's suppose to rain tomorrow. I don't like cold. Man, making videos is so time consuming but it's kind of fun at the same time. I need to get myself a quad core computer with like 8 gigs of RAM and like 5 terabytes of hard drive space to make it quicker. I missed a workout last night because I really wanted to get this video done. This will be another vlog + blog hybrid because I haven't really done much since last entry. I guess I'll throw some fashion week pictures too since I'm lacking that somethin' somethin'.

By the way, Happy Lunar New Years! It's the year of the dragon and apparently, it's the year where married couples try to have children because having kids within the year gives the child strength and something else...I can't remember.

You gotta give props to people like LuanLegacy who pretty much have unedited videos because mines are so damn choppy. I'm always wondering..."How many takes did he do because he's just continuously talking for 5 minutes...".
I watched the movie "Snow Flower and the Secret Fan" (as mentioned in the video) and here's the movie poster for it.

I knew of the movie but I didn't really know much besides the title and the fact that it was a Chinese movie. I told Lisa and she was like "I wanted to watch that movie but my boyfriend said it had bad reviews so we didn't watch it". That kind of threw me off but I wanted to watch it anyway because I like Li Bing Bing and her interview on "The View" definitely sold me.

Here's the interview. The audio is sort of low so remember to turn the volume knob back down after watching haha.

In short, the movie was adapted from a book of the same title and it's about friendship/sisterhood. Doesn't that already just sound like a good movie already? The movie takes place in two times (ancient China and modern Shanghai) and this really beautiful story just unfolds since the beginning of it. I really liked the movie. I'm waiting for my mom to watch it too so I can ask her what she thought about it.
Here's the trailor.

And speaking of beautiful things, I was on YouTube today and saw this Gabby Giffords video up. I think it's kind of sad that I try to get it out there and no one really cares. She's an amazing woman! If you don't follow US politics, basically, Giffords was out at a market in Arizona meeting the public when someone came out shot multiple rounds. Giffords was one of the people shot and she was shot IN THE HEAD. She AMAZINGLY recovered and is still recuperating. For someone who was shot in the head and shows no anguish towards the person who shot her is SO admirable. She presents herself with gratefulness for being alive and still has passion towards helping the people of Arizona. She's genuinely thankful and happy for being alive. She's definitely up there on my list of people I admire.

She is stepping down but it's understandable. You'd think Arizona is full of crazy people because it's one of those super red states with anti-immigration politicians and stuff, but she's one of those outliers. She's so full of awesome. Hate it when people bitch about their lives. It's like...REALLY? HAVE YOU BEEN SHOT IN THE HEAD AND STILL BE GLAD TO BE ALIVE? HAVE YOU FOUGHT TO LIVE LIKE GABBY HAS?

So anyway, it's been hours since I kept this tab opened and I have no recollection of what I wanted to say anymore.

I did get my Topman package and they did charge me for my purchase. I'm so annoyed that I didn't get that Mickey Mouse jumper I really wanted. They should've notified me and gave me an option to cancel rather than just shipping it, adjusting my total, and telling me it didn't ship with it. I was looking through their site again and I saw the say effing jumper so I quickly put it in my cart along with some other stuff in hopes that I'll actually get it this time. Am I fucking crazy or what? LOL :x If I don't get it shipped again, no more attempts... I'll probably do a video on all my Topman stuff since I never bought from them until now.

Okay! some quick pictures of looks I really liked and I need to eat and then sleep! got work and school to go to. I didn't even read. Shame.

Thom Browne FW 2012

Totally had this Frankenstein, crazy house, mad scientist thing going on. I friggin' love it. I love all the details. The spikes, the patterns, sooooo rad, so so rad.

Hermes FW 2012

Totally digging the prints.

Lanvin FW 2012

Very safe looking? but I love the layering and the matching of everything.

photosource: hommemodel.blogspot.com and linked via tumblr.

Come with me and you'll be in a world of pure imagination.

2012-01-17T00:33:00.000-08:00

Take a look and you'll see into your imagination.

I guess this entry will be a hybrid between my vlog and a blog entry because I'm a little crunched on time. I want to be a good school boy, but I also want to be a healthy boy with a steaming hot body. huhu...there's never enough time in a day.

If you'd like to watch my vlog, click above.

Winter quarter started last week so I'll need to get back to reading articles every night and whatnot. It's not like I hate it because I like school and all, but it's also a drag (mehhh...).

At school I apparently already have over 135 units (I've only been at that university for a quarter) so I need to take this writing proficiency exam but I HAVE to take this english course that's suppose to "get you thinking critically" before I can do so. I went to school on a friday trying to get exempted from the requirement because I'm practically a senior and I got fucking turned down. SO ANNOYING! The lady at the testing center was like "you can try to petition the speech course you took but unless that class had a lot of writing, I don't know..." and I'm just thinking to myself... I've taken so many courses and have written tons of papers already. I OBVIOUSLY know how to write and think critically. But yeah, now I have to take this lower division English course next quarter or I won't be able to register for any classes at all. So fucking stupid. My friends agree that they just want our money and it's ironic because they complain about overcrowding and encourage people to graduate faster, but minor things like what I've faced they can't do anything about. I wish there was some dictator to take over the crappy bureaucracy in the CSU system.

Also my Tuesday night class professor strangely doesn't believe in taking attendance, so that night was pretty shitty because the class was full of people trying to add to the point people were just standing in the back. Ugh...I hope my other book comes by tomorrow.

On Wednesday, I went to Love Letter Pizza and Chicken because I've been craving Korean pizza (even though I had pizza on Monday). I've gone there like four times or so now but the last time I went there, I was still using my Samsung Intercept and my friend still had her G1 (lol). It's been so long since then. I've always gone to the Korea Town one but that night was the first time I went to the one in Rowland Heights. I totally forgot about their weekday specials that night because once I went with Lisa and they took that part out because it was winter break or something. (so shady)

I don't think I've ever had the Wednesday special so it was pretty bombbbb. The special comes with a Bulgogi Supreme Pizza, popcorn chicken, salad, and a two liter bottle of soda. The soda actually came in a bottle opposed to a pitcher too! amazzzing! (LOL!). We had a scare that night because the server girl like burned herself or something and totally screamed in the restaurant. Her friends were eating there too so they got her. I totally thought someone was going into labor while my friend thought someone was getting assaulted or something. But anyway, the popcorn chicken was sooooo good because we were expecting like the little shitty popcorn chicken you get from boba places but they were in huge chunks and covered in garlic sauce and sesame seeds. There's no bones in them too so they didn't need to give us those tin cups to toss them in.

After eating at Love Letter, we went to Round 1 since it's a couple blocks away. I didn't know the Korean DDR they have there has legit K-pop songs (lol). I saw this couple dance to BEAST- Shock and the music video was playing in the background. I was like "oooh...I use to love this song". My friend and I just played this some cute hammer game thing and took purikura pictures after because it's cheaper to take there than the purikura stores closer to home. I have 8 credits left on my play card and we both got to play an arcade game and take pictures at two purikura machines, and we only put in five dollars each! Woo!

Other than dinner, I didn't really do anything much. I did have to drive a soccer mom van for work on Friday and it was fucking crazy. I drove a Chrysler Town and Country (the previous generation, the not very boxy one) and it's suppose to be a luxury car but the key was bent and the door wouldn't open half the time so me. The transmission is automatic but it's right beside the steering wheel and it was really awkward to use. I also had to do a three point turn and I was so paranoid I was going to rear end a parked car (LOLL _ _ ). When I was going to drive the van to my workplace's second location, the door wouldn't open so I asked A why isn't the door opening and he went to see, and he effing opened the door, turned on the headlights and engine, and fuckin' drove it to me! I was like WTF!! LOL. American cars hate me. When I got to my workplace's second location so I could park the van and leave with my own car, I had no idea where the off switch for the headlights were either. I essentially kept turning on and off the windshield wipers like a dumb ass and even had the washer fluid come out and continued wiping. I ended up going inside and asking B if she knew how to. With B being calm and me being the nervous wreck that I was, B found it and I was like OMG! What a damn day.

That day I also knew that I was coming down with a cold because I could feel it. On the bright side, that day I didn't really do anything at work besides installing a bunch of games and camera apps for my coworker who's iPhone died so she has to use a android phone for the time being. I am SUCH a good coworker. (haha). The cold has taken its toll on my lips and my nose. I'm trying not to blow my nose too much because the last time I did that, I had really bad clogged ears and it did not feel good at all. I hope it passes over really quickly. T-T...

I made a Topman order but I'm kind of pissed because I ordered this mickey mouse jumper and it didn't ship with my order. I'm assuming it's out of stock so they refunded me my money and shipped the rest? I just looked at my transactions though and I don't see any charges for Topman anymore. Maybe I'll be getting some free clothes O-o. I'll probably make an entry or video on it if I ever receive it. Is there a better word for "haul"? I don't really like that word (lol).

But anyway, my birthday is exactly a month from now. I wanted nice abs by then but I don't think I'll be getting there until summer. I did shrink a bit and I'm pretty happy because my weight is relatively the same and I'm more defined opposed to inflated looking. Can you believe I looked like this (or worse) pretty much my entire teenage life?

That was from a video for my government class in senior year. I was around 120 pounds then.

I'm getting closer to the body I want. I still need to work on my stomach but I'm definitely making strides! WOO!!

Currently 165~170 pounds.

Since it's fashion week in Milan, I guess I'll end my entry with some pieces I like. I pretty much spammed the living shit out of my tumblr with pictures from it but I'll post the ones that really stand out to me here.

Frankie Morello FW 2012

Burberry FW 2012

Lastly, I love how Dolce and Gabbana hired a grip of Chinese male models this year. They got Rock Ji Huanbo, Wang Fei, Jerry Fu Zhenggang, and Hao Yunxiang. I LOVE them. Too bad Jeffrey Zang wasn't in it too. I think he has a very fitting image in Dolce and Gabbana's lineup too.

Rock Ji Huanbo and his godly body.

Jerry Fu. I didn't use to like him because I thought he looked too unconventional (? for lack of a better word). I thought he looked like a mutant from X-men but his look has grown on me. I like his look over Zhao Lei (whose most in demand in Western fashion)

Hao Yunxiang and Zhao Lei!! ahhhh!! :D

Okay, I got to stop with the pictures before I screw myself over. Time to exercise, shower, read, and sleep!

Well sometimes I go out, by myself, and I look across the water.

2012-01-08T00:25:00.000-08:00

And I think of all the things, of what you're doing, and in my head I paint a picture.

This will probably be a short entry because I didn't really do anything since last entry.
I didn't go rock climbing so no pictures of that. HAHA!

I went with Lisa to the mall because she wanted new heels but we came out of it with no luck. I guess that was a blessing in disguise because Lisa wanted a pair of Steve Madden wedges and the closest thing was at Aldo for 80$. When she got home and looked at the Steve Madden site, the pair of wedges she wanted was on sale AND it was cheaper than the 80$ knockoff at Aldo. I had some Paris Baguette at the mall because I didn't really have lunch that day. I woke up around 3pm and got ready around 4:30 so all I had was some granola bars and water.

If you didn't already know, Paris Baguette is a South Korean Cafe/Bakery chain and has chains in the US too (or at least in California). I got a cafe mocha and a slice of cake for like 7$...really expensive >__>;; but I had to try it so yeah...haha...

After the mall, we just had Asian styled burgers at Bun Bun but I didn't take pictures because I've taken a ton already from that place.

I went to Target like three times the past two weeks...lol...It doesn't help that they sell groceries now.

I got this mouse pad for the dollar section. I love the little pick-me-up on the tree...I think that's a tree.

I got this magnetic memo pad from the dollar section as well...I liked it too much to leave without it...>_>...

Femme Fatale Tour on DVD. FINALLY. something is up with my computer and MKV files to VOB.


Another one of those awesome finds at Target. Collectible adult Disney band-aids. I did not buy them though. I would if I was made of money (lol).

I ordered from SASA again and I got more cleansers so I don't have to buy cleansers for a long time. (hehe)
I also ordered Skinfood emulsion but I got an out of stock email a couple days later, got it refunded, and had the rest shipped. That means I bought around only 20$ worth of stuff to get the free shipping. I kind of wanted to get some Hada Labo stuff after ordering but they're kind of pricey, so I'll just finish my other stuff first. I'm also on my last pack of oil blotting paper so I hope the Acnes ones are good. I've tried some cheap ass blotting paper before that just ripped on my face as I blotted. It was a pisser and such a waste of money.

Other that that...I spent some time really trimming and shaping my eyebrows one night because I haven't done it in awhile. Usually I just pluck the bottom and let the rest grow since my whole crazy super thin eyebrows thing a couple years ago :x. Now I have pretty alright brows but it doesn't really flow (?) so I have to make it flow...lol. The only thing I don't like about my brows are that they're naturally short horizontally, and the camcorder captures that pretty well. I don't see it that way in the mirror though! so weird. But whatever, I have brow pencils (lol).

Ugh...the quarter starts next week! I don't want to go back to school but I must. I really need to get it done with. I got my parking permit ready and just need to print out my schedule. Gonna have a little snackeroo and then get my workout on. If you watched my vlog below, I can do better crunches/sit ups now because of the ball. I totally feel sexier abs already (haha).

[Videos] Ummm...yes. Can't think of a better title.

2012-01-07T23:15:00.000-08:00

Vlog #2. Outfit of the day?...hair...balance ball...
My Review of Missha's M Vita BB Cream in Matte

It's probably just me being self conscious, but I feel like the camera doesn't portray my eyebrows correctly? lol I swear they look better in person... :x

another year older, another year wiser.

2011-12-31T05:03:00.000-08:00

-UPDATE 1/2/2012: added a video at the end of the entry-

Hellooo my lovely diary...journal...web log.

Scrambling to write an entry because I was... not feeling well between Wednesday night and Friday morning.
I can't even remember if I took any artsy fartsy pictures since last entry so this may be a short one (not that anyone cares because I know only like 4 people actually read my blogger but I'm trying to type more formal now because I don't know...I want to look more professional...so I'm capitalizing all my "i"'s, for example).

Tell me ya'll have seen this YouTube video. It's only, like, one of the best YouTube videos out there LOL. If I had to choose my spirit animal, the honey badger would be it.

Here's the video, by the way.

The honey badger is bad ass, is it not?

So anyway, I went to Target the second day after Christmas (the 27th) and Lisa went like hours before I did but I went anyway because I planned on going that night after I filmed that BB cream video in the previous entry. I went to Target to find it being pretty packed and the Christmas items clearance section annihilated. I bought a box of Christmas mini Reese's peanut butter cups for 2.50$ and it contained "about" 25 of them, so I don't even know if I got a deal out of that. I should have just bought a bag of Andes chocolate mints like I have been for the past month or two (heh). I just wanted to go to Target to check out their clothes on clearance because sometimes I find nice stuff in it. I also seem to either MISPLACED my beloved Smurfs t-shirt or may have donated it, so I'm kind of sad about it because I got it from there. I know I'm like almost 23 but I still like child'ish stuff (as long as it isn't tacky looking). They had this Disney x Target shirt I liked for 10$ but it was for Christmas so I would never really have an excuse to wear it unless it's Christmas...

In going through the clearance racks, I happened to find those awesome but kind of "ehhh~" quality Marvel and DC undies on clearance!! CHYEAHH !! They were only 5.xx$ and perfect colors for Chinese New Year's too, no?! HAHA!

So yeah...I have several Iron Man ones, a Green Lantern one, a Captain America one, several Batman ones, several Superman ones. (I'm crazy, I know. I have so many undies now that I can use the old ones to wipe dust off furniture and dry my car with now.) I also bought myself a cute little Snoopy memo pad from the dollar section because I wanted to put any ideas for my YouTube channel in there.

And then the day before going to Target (the 26th), I had hot pot with some friends and we did our little gift exchange. I'm actually really happy with what I got. I know for a fact that my secret Santa spent over the 25$ limit too, so I love her even more for that. My wish list was basically asking for the Zara x Playboy white v-neck with the bunny print above the pocket, "those Calvin Klein briefs with the cool waistbands" but what I meant was the Calvin Klein X ones that Nakata Hidetoshi and Kellan Lutz modeled for (but it's okay, they're my first pair of expensive undies :x), and I think my last requested item was a 1/2" mini flat iron. There might have been a fourth one that just said like "I don't know...surprise me" but that's a shitty thing to put and usually leads to disappointment (lol).

Well one thing now is that I have too many flat irons...I bought myself a 3/4" one in the past and my secret Santa bought me a 1" one because that was the only way she could get the 1/2" one for me, so now I have three of them (LOL T^T...I also have one that has metal plates that I don't use). Another thing is that I can definitely understand and feel why expensive undies are better than a 5 pack of Hanes or Fruit of the Loom ones. They fit better AND the material is also WAYYY better. Those particular CK ones, for example, the fabric is sort of water resistant so it's good if you workout for a long time or something and your ass gets all sweaty. You'll still have dry underwear (as funny as it may sound). The fabric also doesn't stretch out over the period of a day like my Joe Boxer or Hanes ones do. Even when they're both freshly worn, they both still kind of sag under my butt so something is up with the fit of them because my butt ain't exactly big or non existent. If I did have a non existent butt, I sure would have an easier time putting jeans on *shifty eyes*.

I sure love my teeny flat iron though! It's so perfect because my hair is so short right now because I wanted all the dyed parts out. I still have little bits of brown but I don't want to over cut my hair and be left with nothing to style.

The aftermath of the dinner thing was what got to me on Wednesday night though...I suggest you skip over the next paragraph unless you like very vividly descriptive vulgar text.

I don't know what it was. My friend said I might have caught it from my other friend but I don't think it was air born. I thought it might have been the Christmas cookies I ate because I pooped just fine that morning. My mom thinks it is the hot pot because she didn't see me eat anything else since then (untrue). But anyway, that night I was like "oh~I'll just have some candy before working out" and then I start crapping up a storm and getting REALLY bloated. I ended up showering early and trying to sleep it off but the whole night was just me getting up to use the restroom every hour and tossing because my body was so kinked up. I thought I felt a little better when the sun rose so I ate normally but it came back. I napped on and off throughout the day and was having hot and cold flashes. My muscles were aching so much like the burning feeling you get when you do lots of reps? yeah...except I wasn't doing anything. Y__Y. I spent two days eating jook (porridge) and water and I actually weighed myself the second day when I started feeling more alive. I lost about 4 pounds but I'm sure it all came back. It sure ain't water weight though because I was drinking a shizzatload of that and having explosive diarrhea every hour. I started feeling much better around Friday afternoon so I actually bothered to get some exercise in before I called it a night. I can now say that I can actually fart now...yay... :x After much thinking, I think my mom is right. Maybe I ate something that wasn't fully cooked yet from the hot pot and it ended up making my insides detox the living hell out of itself. "Mother knows best" after all~ -____-. I'm sure we've all had times like these. I can't be the only one. Funny though, some friends I mention business like this to, they either deflect it and go "uh...TMI?" or others are more helpful and try to give advice so if you read this, it'll be that way or the other.

With all the nastiness aside, I wanted to wake up sort of early today and ended up sleeping until 4pm. Mehh...I'm seriously messed up, but it's not like I have anything to do anyway so yeah. I want to get a final entry for the year! I can't believe my blog will be turning 3 soon. That's when babies start talking? I think? I started this in July 2009. Woo~wee... times flies and I've gathered a pitiful amount of followers in that amount of time (not that I care or anything).

But to reflect upon myself in 2011. This was my entry for the 1st of January 2011.

"this year i'd like to have, be, or whatevers...
~~-give up caffeine~~ I think I drink more now than ever...lol.
~~-get a HOT HOT HOT relatively fatless and defined body and maintain it *grabs and looks @ pooch* because i want to be a DILF foreverrrr.~~ I guess I half achieved this. I felt really fat half way into 2011 and worked on getting more shapely. I still have my pooch to work on but I do see a notable difference. Go me!
~~-fix my FUCKED up sleeping schedule.~~ Ummm *rolls eyes* ~ I blame my scheduling between work and school BUT I think I've gotten more hours of sleep this year after I transferred schools because I took up night classes opposed to mornings.
~~-always and forever try my best in school and try to finish undergrad as fast as i can from all the time i've wasted previously~~ 12 units is the bare minimum I take. I SHOULD be taking 16 to make up for it...but I don't think I can do it with work. A job along with school is really important to me because of my family's situation. Progress wise...I'm a little over half way there! hustle hustle...
~~-meet new people, maybe even make some lasting friends.~~ I've definitely met a lot of new people this year. Lasting friends though? Not so much...I don't know...I'm like a people repellent or something. *sad face*
~~-i don't know what else...i don't ask for much~~

this is more of a wish but
~~-hope my dad finds a new full time job soon.~~ *sigh* I don't know about this either. He SORT OF works but it's nothing like working a full-time job that you can rely on. Talking about it is worse because it's a very touchy subject, especially when you are "the man of the house"/ very traditional. Is it weird of me to hope that the unemployment agency would just mail him a letter stating that his unemployment benefits have been exhausted and they will not be able to give him any more so that he might make a bigger effort to do something about it? My dad is old but not near retirement age. He's like 5 years shy. 5 years is a long time. What's more annoying is when my parents pour money into getting new furniture and incremental "improvements"/things for my bored ass dad to do at home and I'm always the one getting mad and saying "how can we even afford this?". It's not like my mom is any better off either. She's always saying like "oh~I hope the company will still be doing okay next year". Another thing is that our living room TV just died. I guess that's good for my dad because he stated that he wanted a 50 inch TV for the living room ANYWAY (this was when I got my replacement TV for my room). I don't know how we hemorrhage money for this. I already try to pay my mom as quickly as I can back for tuition while having some spending money for myself because aid is based on taxes from the previous year and not current. I'm not sure how much aid I'll get this year but I doubt I'll be fully covered. Right now, I pay full and then get half of it back in a check a bit later. My dad is also like my brother...full of excuses...but I shall not get into detail because this is personal matters. This is only part of my story that I choose to share."

I've realized I still type sort of annoying? I'll try to change that...lol.
For 2012 I'd like...
- To get to that hot body I oh-so-very desire.
- To be happier? (I'm pretty positive for the most part but I feel very unsatisfied and incomplete a lot)
- To get my YouTube channel really rolling along. I WILL CHANNEL MY INNER ANDERSON COOPER AND WENDY WILLIAMS HAHA BECAUSE I LOVE THEM AS TALK SHOW HOSTS.
- To find love? (hahah...so corny...). I really doubt this one but as they say, love works in mysterious ways...~

I'm really horrible at setting up goals. I can't think of it all at once, but I've done a lot in 2011.

I...
-had alcohol for the first time? I think? and it is expensive and sucks. Don't ever drink. It tastes like crap and I never ever "felt loosened up". Drunk friends are annoying too. From my experience, they "act" very needy. so just avoid that all together.
-took up bowling and got (what I consider) pretty good at it.
-tried so many restaurants and ate so much good food
-went to San Diego and Vegas, and that is a big deal to me because the last time I had a big trip was in .2009.
-transferred schools (finally).
-stopped taking whey protein.
-think I've felt more like a grown up than ever.

But yeah...I don't know....that's all I can think of as of this moment.
I'm not even watching the pre-recorded ball drop because New Years Eve is boring when it isn't on CNN with Anderson Cooper and Kathy Griffin. I don't have cable anymore so yeah. I did, however, watch Friends With Benefits because I wanted to watch it for the longest time after seeing all the photos of it on tumblr. I must say that it was a very good movie. It definitely hit my soft spot. It had a bunch of actors I like from others shows in it, so it just made it that much better. I also love the whole LA to NY thing and the humor in it. Such a clever movie! Ahhhh I'm such a sappy corny piece of crap *falls to the ground*.

I definitely recommend it for people who haven't watched it yet. Justin Timberlake's body made me feel like crap BUT I WILL GET THERE!! ARRGH!! WITHIN 2012. And Mila Kunis...I love her voice and she is so pretty.

Ehhhh....so anyway.
This will be my last week of winter break and then back to school I go. I'm glad I got to register for one more class because I did end up going to a academic advisor and got my whole confusion sorted out. I now just need to visit my community college again to get certification because apparently my university doesn't acknowledge my missing classes that I've taken equivalents to, so it's just easier to get certification to amend them. I hope I don't have to deal with too much shit when it comes to it. I hate how I went to two different community colleges and at one school, if you want certification, you just fill out of a form, but at the other, you have to see a counselor. What is the point if I just want a form sent to another school? I'll probably do it between Tuesday and Thursday. I don't know. I need to get something done this break at least.

I apologize for the lack of pictures if that was what you're expecting.
I am going rock climbing next week...I think...so maybe then! : )!
I'm going to try and get a video or two on my YouTube channel before break ends too~sooo yay!

Happy New Years.
May 2012 be even better.

and here is my little thanks.

[Video] Guys Guide to Natural Looking BB Cream

2011-12-28T21:34:00.000-08:00

This is actually my second take. My first one was really ummm...not up to par. I'm like an OCD perfectionist. I don't know how girls film themselves on the floor because my back was aching after awhile (lol). My tables are a huge mess though so I can see why they do it...(+ something about light hitting your better at an angle? *shrug*). I really should wake up earlier to see if sunlight really makes a difference. What other videos should I do?...hmmmmmmmm~

SO YEAH! I'll type a journal entry soon. I should clean my room first.

Hey Ya'll~ Happy Holidays.

2011-12-25T01:09:00.000-08:00

My family isn't that festive when it comes to Christmas but I do love the whole idea of togetherness, being good and grateful, peace, that type of stuff. I thought about buying a dinky looking tree like Charlie Brown had but that didn't happen (lol). I didn't really get presents this year either but whatever. I bought myself more than enough stuff and I basically give to my parents on a regular basis. -___-.

This student at my workplace has a dad who runs a bakery and she brought a box of Christmas cookies and they were insanely cute and pretty looking that I didn't want to eat it and just took a bunch home to stare at. I ate one for breakfast when I woke up today though and gave my mom one when she walked into my room. I gave my brother a gingerbread man one that looked so much like the one from "Shrek" yesterday.

This cute kid at my workplace asked if he could call his dad to ask him if he could open (as in the box to play with) his secret Santa gift. I was like "man...you are so cute and well disciplined" in my mind. He got these Nerf gun type guns which was pretty awesome. The nicest gift I saw a student get was this jelly fish aquarium by Discovery Kids(?) or the Discovery Center(?)...well it was from the "Discovery" brand. I was all giddy seeing him hold his present. I would never raise jellyfish but it was so cool!! (I'm such a geek...). I kept thinking to myself "wouldn't it be so cool if they could dry jellyfish and if you just fill up the tank and throw in the dried jellyfish, they'll come back to life" (LOL) ugh...

SO YAH~ my winter break hasn't been so fun so far because I still had to work which consumes my day. The only cool thing that sort of happened was Lisa taking me to this cool Japanese styled hotdog place.

We went to this place called "Snow Princess" in the Hacienda Heights area. It's right across from the Puente Hills Mall. I got the j-dog combo which comes with a hotdog, drink, and fries. I got a pork katsu dog, milk tea, and fries with seasoning that I don't remember the name of. My food was kind of hecka salty. The milk tea could be better. It was very generic tasting. Lisa got the shrimp tempura dog. I kind of wanted that one too but I didn't want us to get the same thing.

"Snow Princess" also has a pretty big variety of shaved ice that you can choose from. Lisa and I got the yogurt flavored one. And by yogurt it is meant like the Yakult or Calpis type flavor, not the Yoplait kind.

the bottom was lined with lychee, aloe, and "popping" boba. I didn't like popping boba at all...it was really sour LOL. I kept making these ugly faces to Lisa when I kept trying to enjoy them. Also the concept of popping boba kind of made us all retarded because we kept trying to figure out how they put liquid in it and then put a skin over it? Yeah...lol...I'm surprised the owner of the place was Cantonese because usually Japanese styled places in the area are usually run by Taiwanese people because of the island's close ties to Japan because of Taiwan's history with China (?)...I don't want to offend so I'm like beating around the bush...lol

I wanna try the jajjangmyun place next door, but that'll be next time.

A couple days before going to Snow Princess, Lisa asked if I could go to the mall to go Christmas shopping with her and I was like "sure! I get off at 6". I didn't buy anything but looked to see if there were any cheap clothes I could get. I didn't get any but I stood in this long line at HM while Lisa wanted to try a denim shirt that she wanted for herself. She got some stuff for her best friends and we went to "Bun Bun Tea House" afterwards for some burgers for dinner.

I got a shrimp burger with a milk tea but the lighting kind of sucks + my cellphone camera ain't the best but yeahhhhhh~ my burger was alright. My favorite burger from there is the black peppered beef burger with the rice bun because it smells amazing and definitely tastes amazing also. The shrimp and fish burger there is like something you'd have at McD's to satisfy your hunger with but not really feel pleased.

Most recently, Lisa and I went to this coffee place really close by to where we live and it's supposedly like a coffee chain in Taiwan. It's called "Roaster Family Coffee" and I almost got into a effing car accident that night because some RETARDED person did not stop when it was a red light and he or she had PLENTY of space and time to brake. IT WAS EFFING SCARY, and luckily the car from across the street and I caught it because we could've both been affected by it. The person didn't floor it to run the light either. It was red for at least a second and that car was fucking cruising at like 20mph and was like 15 feet away. Lisa was like WOAH SHIT~I TOTALLY SCRATCHED MYSELF WHILE WITNESSING THAT. Ugh...thankfully nothing happened to my beloved car. It's bad enough that it got its ass rammed at like 5mph by some senior and I didn't do anything about it.

my coffee mocha. delish~


Lisa's rose milk tea? I think...lol

I originally wanted a tiramisu with my coffee but the cute helper girl apologized to me and said they ran out so I got a creme brulee instead. The creme brulee was good, but being the fat ass boy that I am...I don't really consider it food so I was left a bit unsatisfied...eheh.

Lisa's waffle

a picture from my camcorder (and Lisa's nails...).

Lisa was like...we're having tea with these nice glass sets...I totally feel like Alice in Wonderland right now.

And I was like...Yeah, I know right?~ahahah

I didn't really film much at the cafe but I wanted to make a video for my friend who's in Busan for at least 6 more months. She said she wants to do another year so she may extend her contract. Well her current perks in Busan aren't even that great (she doesn't even get a two week vacation) so I don't know how she'll be doing that additional year. I really want to visit... but I don't really have the money nor do I really want to travel alone because I know no one else would go with me. No one really goes to South Korea to visit Busan anyway but who knows, only time will tell...

I love how she gets me, and we haven't talked much since she left. We don't talk on a day to day basis when she was here either. The last text I sent to her was like 21 days ago and I sent her one today out of boredom and she actually replied today, but anyway~ this was a comment about her new Facebook picture

If you don't get the joke, people get their enhancement surgeries in clinics. I also have single eyelids if you don't already know.

So anyway, I was really torn between how I should upload the video (FB vs. Youtube) because I used music in it (scared of getting flagged) AND I fucking HATE it when people comment my messages who is not a mutual friend. Is there even a term for that? It's like photo bombing but in comments instead. -___-. I ended up uploading it to my other YouTube account so my petehizzle one wouldn't have any strikes against me if Google ever allows me to partner with them. But then that Youtube account (paytear) is linked to this blog, so if my youtube account goes down, this blog might go down too LOL...so yeah...I wouldn't mind starting fresh though. After uploading, I posted it on my wall and tagged her because my Facebook is hecka restricted so no one that we don't know between us should've been able to see the video besides my friends and our mutual ones. My Facebook is so sad looking (lol) because I essentially have no info and just a wall that's mostly me posting with no traces of my activity and just people who post on it. Ohhhhh~ the negative side of having kids from work find me on Facebook and me not having the heart to reject them so I just add them but put them in a list that only allows them to see my profile picture and nothing else.

I originally uploaded the video unlisted and when I tried to post it on my wall, the thumbnail wouldn't show so I put it as public and I couldn't put it back as unlisted. I might as well post it here because of not being able to putting it back to being unlisted. Still trying to get familiar with Sony Vegas because I don't have fucking iMovie or whatever the fuck Mac people use. I must say...it's better than my other video HAHA. Lisa said Final Cut Pro (?) was really easy to use but I looked it up and it's for macs only? Whatevers. Sony Vegas is good enough for me.

ummm...I didn't wear enough concealer (if you can see dark spots on your monitor. if not, disregard that statement :x). I only hung out for like two hours anyway...and it's not like I'm scared to show Lisa my crap, after work, dead tired, zombie face anyway. The video also switches back and forth between my made up face and my bare face with untouched hair sooooo you'll be like "wow he has shitty skin and an ugly voice" :x.

I don't hate my eyelids or anything though, fyi. I'm also learning to accept my voice after re-watching my videos over and over (lol). If I was sponsored some teeth bleaching and surgeries, I may reconsider, but that would make me like Quinn from GLEE who once was fat and ugly and transferred schools like three times, then went on a diet, got a nose job, and created a new identity for herself at McKinley High after being teased so much. I've never been teased when it comes to my eyes but my voice was another story :x so I've been self conscious about it ever since...not that altering my voice would've made me popular or anything because all Quinn ever wanted was to be popular and at the top and stuff...lol

MOVING ON!

I didn't get any presents thus far, but I am in a little secret Santa thing between my older peers and I got her one of these.

I really wanted one for myself a year or so ago before it was a trend here, but I never got it because it was like a silly thing to get. I had my fun with it now already anyway so I'm over getting it. I was going to get my secret Santa a fox tail too but that wolf hood was already 25 bucks so...pass on that. I wish they had a white version so my secret Santa would match her dog. Before getting this hood with mittens, I wanted to get this dog outfit from Britney Spears's online store that said "It's Britney's Bitch" lol but it's not like my secret Santa is a Britney fan or anything. My present didn't even fit in anything from her wishlist but whatever HAHA. I hope she doesn't have one of these already.

Let's see what I get this coming Monday...

I didn't really buy anything since last entry but I can home from work one day to find that my free Wendy's shirt came. Pretty cool! hahaha. I don't know which is more conceited sounding...the one I got or the "Here's the Beef" one.

I don't remember why I didn't get the "Here's the Beef" one because that one would've came in navy...(which would make me look less pudgy)

I also checked my grades from Fall quarter. I got all B's (B-, B-, B) which I'm pretty amazed by because I did some PREEEEETTY average crappy work when it came to paper writing, reading, and studying. I am happy nonetheless because I'm SUCH the average Asian. I'll never be the 4.0 student. never ever...

In ending this entry...random pictures from between last entry and this one.

Only tacky people wear socks that don't match and slippers with them....*shifty eyes*

I gave myself a two inch bleeding scratch when I took out the trash at work. The dumpster was pretty much full and I wanted to make sure all the pizza boxes stayed in it. I should've just not cared because there was EVEN MORE trash to throw AROUND that dumpster the day after...blerg.

I shall go work out now. Ciao. I should also think of resolutions to make for the new years.

I've been California wishing on these stars for your heart....for me.

2011-11-24T21:12:00.001-08:00

Hellew my lovely blogger. As usual, I'm sitting here in the dead of the night writing on my blog because I have nothing better to do than to archive my craps on this weblog...

This pen isn't that great. It's not suppose to bleed but if your notebook paper is thin, it'll bleed anyway. It also isn't "fine" enough for me. It writes too thick for my liking.

I haven't gone out much since last entry since it is finals week and what not. I've only bought stuff for myself heh, but when don't I?...lol. On a random note, I went to "cotton on" like a week or two after the time I bought that denim jacket for 24$ and happened to find more of it now AND one in a size medium. What a pisser! Oh well. I'm trying to get leaner anyway...so I'm suppose to be losing some muscle mass anyway.

There is a video if you jump into the full version of this entry, btw. It is also sort of very image heavy so some refreshing may be required (if you have shitty internet like me).

Anyhoo, the only sort of exciting thing to happen recently was this huge windstorm I have never felt before until now. It was like a hurricane without the rain. It literally felt like the end of the world was going to happen because I kept expecting the power to go off but ironically and fortunately, it never did. It also felt like a haunted house because I was trying to study in silence and every five to fifteen minutes or so, wind would start blowing all my curtains up (my windows have cracks). My street is lined with really tall palm trees so the leaves could just fly down and get caught on the electrical wires and blow the transformers but it didn't! I didn't take any pictures but some of the tiles that line the roof of my home's garage got blown down and shattered on the ground and THANKFULLY IT NEVER HIT MY CAR. Why was I so stupid to park so close to the garage that night after class? lol. Our tree in the front yard had one of it's main branches forced down to the lawn and broken because of the gusts but that's taken care of already. Our basketball thing in the backyard even got pushed a bit...and the support for that thing is filled with water so it's really heavy...but that don't matter for me because I don't play sports. Here's a picture of some metropolitan wide damage.

Source: latimes

This was from my facebook feed. I died a little inside when I saw this LOL...

The windstorm did have a negative side because I had a final the next day and school wasn't shut down or anything. After my final, I wanted to reward myself with boba but chunks of the city had no electricity so it was essentially car mayhem everywhere. I ended up going home because even in places where there was power and could have potential business, they were shut down too!! Just my damn luck. oh well...

So yeah! I'm done with finals! I'm officially on winter break. HOORAH!! I can go out more and not worry about things and hang out more freely (especially since my friends will be home-home).

moving on~~~
say hello to my new babies.

My new TV... isn't a Samsung...or LG...or Panasonic or Sony or something...but I love it either way. It is 100x better than my dying tube television. It has a sleep timer function AND an audio only function. I really like that because I can fall asleep to the TV and it'll turn off itself in 30 minutes, 60 minutes, 90 minutes, 2 hours etc. Talk about freakkkin' genius!

I also don't have to use my laptop anymore to do workout videos and can watch the local news and arirang again. YAYYYYY lol. My brother bought himself a ps3...which i don't really care for but at least my house has a blu-ray player now...I want to buy the "move" bundle so I can buy and play the "just dance" games...I want to buy a mic so I can play karaoke revolution too...ugh...but not at this moment. I can live without games anyway. I've said wanted to buy a DS for so long (2 or so years ago) and I still haven't gotten one. heh.

My other new baby is this...

It is preeeeeetty sweeet. It was smaller than I imagined because i never seen it in person. I was looking to buy one on amazon and never saw it at a store. I wanted the 16gig version but amazon didn't sell it anymore by the time I really wanted to buy it (downside of waiting)...so I dropped an extra 50 or so dollars to buy it @___________@...I have a huge sum to pay off on my credit card this month T__________T ...

So this is a sample video from my Canon VIXIA HF M41! I'm sure I'll turn you all off with my annoying and not very sexy voice.

I am...awkward...but yeah, if you'd like me to show you anything just tell me :x~ I'll be doing a little guide video for BB cream use for guys later on because I know it's kind of a bitch to use if you're either tan, really yellow skinned (like me), or not pale enough to match the one shade many offer.

Soooo my YouTube channel name is "petehizzle" (awesome name, no? :d). It's currently in the works as I'm reformatting my desktop...and stuffs. This is random, but I learned that sunlight and candle light is soft light so girls/gurus film in the day time because it just naturally makes them look better. Just food for thought (hehe).

With getting some 21st century technology aside...I'll go back to last month...

I had my fill of some good shaved snow on the 17th of November. I wish that they didn't cut SUCH large pieces of mango because it takes away from the shaved ice huhu...but it was so delicious either way.

We were actually the last ones to leave the restaurant that night. It was pretty weird but cool ~ lol. The staff weren't bitches about us eating slow : )

The day before that...gave my regular dose of TMI because Lisa and I are so cool that we can talk about that stuff without being weird/trying to avoid the subject.

I had dinner with some of my older peers on the 18th. Met my friend's beautiful and super cute doggy. I swear everyone at my workplace (or once worked at my place) who's a girl has an effing cute dog.

His name is Hercules but I was calling him Foxy or Wolfy the whole night because he totally looks like one...lol

Here are some gifs of him!!

Ughhh I want a dog...lol...maybe in a couple more years...

I watched "Crazy, Stupid, Love" that night too. That movie was pretty good. I liked it very much, but when have I never liked a movie...I can't even think that far back.

Random pictures...

Here's a cupcake that looks so similar to a cartoon depiction poop...lol. I got it at work and I didn't even eat it because it was like super sweet. I gave it to a kid at my workplace because he's adorable and a good boy so he'd enjoy it more than I would anyway...heh

I can't be the only one who's so lazy that I'd stuff the whole aluminum tray into the toaster oven because there was only one cinnamon bun left and i didn't want to bother getting actual foil for it. The tray was going to end up in the trash anyway...

I bought these from acne.org's amazon site so I wouldn't have to pay taxes. I'm so genius. These last for a very long time, so don't be afraid to pay the large amount for them...lol. This reminds me when I was at work this kid was like...

J: I can't eat chips. I have a canker sore *to her friend*
Her friend: What's a canker sore?
J: Uhhh...I can't explain it. Peter, What's a canker sore?
Me: Uhhh.....................it's like a pimple, but inside your mouth.
J: YEAH!!
Her friend: Ohhhhh. "yeet hay (cantonese)".

I would be an awesome dad, no? LOLLL...

Picked out and ate my favorite ones (the orange/green one) and left with the other two... that I eventually finished but didn't enjoy as much...lol first world problems.

I got my SASA.com order the other day. I like the cleansers because they're just what I want in a cleanser. I hate that slick, not clean feeling my past cleansers have been giving me. The magic bubble peeling is a foam...dislike...I thought it was going to be a gel...but whatever...I'll use it anyway. I tried it last night and I didn't really see anything rub off my face...not sure why...maybe that cleanser is really good...lol

I hope SASA gives the lower minimum free shipping again soon...so I can buy more cleansers...lol. My mom also uses my cleanser so yeah...

I got Levi 511's from foot action's website for about 20$ each. They aren't even that skinny fitted...I was surprised that they didn't hug below the knees. The super skinnys I probably wouldn't even be able to pull up my legs anyway. Oh well~ can't complain since they were so cheap. I remember when i use to work at Mervyn's, the cheapest they ever go for was like 30$? maybe more...can't remember. I had it shipped to the mall because shipping to my house wasn't free. blerg~ I could tell very few people do that because of my experience I had at foot action last night picking it up ahah.

I also got a pair of shorts and jeans from forever21's website because they were only like 13$ each in the end but I'm too lazy to take pictures or find the pictures of them. They're just very basic looking. The shorts are like..slacks material and the jeans are gray...skinny'ish...but coated so it's a little glossy and I need them shortened.

Never mind, my camera is right beside me anyway.

OH~ and I FINALLY got my damn undies. It took almost a damn month. I swear my luck with those deal sites is the worst.

As you can see, I totally went crazy with buying stuff since last entry. I guess the whole post Thanksgiving/pre-Christmas thing really works for consumers...lol =___=

I think that's all i have to say...I've been wanting to see if I've made any physical changes since I've stopped taking protein shakes and took up working out 6 times a week, and do ab work outs after all my exercises. I do see differences but i don't know....I don't really see them in pictures...and I take the pictures with three different cameras so they're kind of deceiving? I don't know. My sense of self perception is kind of skewed.

So i think I vowed to get leaner on Aug. 22, 2011...This is around mid-august?

You can tell I'm totally suckin' it in on the bottom right hah.

These are around October 22nd, 2011

November 12, 2011

around December...between the 1st-8th

December 9th

I need to keep working on my lower abs...ugh I hope my stomach looks wayyy nicer by my 23rd birthday.

So yeah...my moobs are less mooby and more firm. My muffin top isn't as muffin-y. Stomach looks better...but not exactly nice...and I feel like my legs are thinner too (yay...thanks to the effing amount of stairs I had to take to get to my Fall lectures)

Currently, my inspirations are...Britney Spears circa TRL Spankin' New Music Week 2003.

Not super duper lean like her 2000 "Satisfaction/Oops!" performance or defined like in her 2001 "Slave" performance but just perrrrrrrrfect.

And my male body inspiration is this picture of Colton Haynes I saw today and was like "holyyyy shit". I don't watch "Teen Wolf" but...I should? hah.

talk about perfection...

The thing about celebrities, though, is that they actually train really hard for 1-3 months before music video shoots, performances, roles, so people should keep in mind that they're regular people too and their bodies don't always look the way we see them in music videos, etc.

So yeah...I'm going to go workout...and try to save as much files as i can before I reformat my desktop because it's kind of whack right now. I'll be back with more videos with my vixia camcorder and entries with food later on.

Bye.

i'm a soldier to my own emptiness.

2011-11-12T04:17:00.001-08:00

i'm bored and just caught up to all the episodes of "glee" season 3 and "parks and recreation" season 4. i feel all crappy now because i'm a sucker for all the sappy shizz that is happening on "glee" and "parks and rec" right now, lol. sigh balls. katy perry's new music video also came out as well as "immortals". i kind of want to watch immortals because it's centered around greek mythology...at least that's what it seems from what i saw on E! lol and apparently kellan lutz plays poseidon in the film... but yeah, i love greek mythology! i use to know all the stories.

yay...colder weather...more layers and excuse to hide my hair.

ugggghhh i got super average scores on all my midterms...what is wrong with me! i'm asian! in asian standards...that's like negative F. i hope to see an advisor next week in regards to scheduling...i basically have no idea what to take anymore because my transferred courses aren't even credited yet so i need to have someone look over whatever transcripts they have and fill in all the red in my "degree process" bleh~

i have an 8 page paper due on thursday. i need to read and finish at least half of it by monday or tuesday so i don't screw myself over and get no sleep at all on wednesday night.

the time went back one hour and i'm definitely going to make an effort to sleep like by 4:30am now because i HATE seeing the sunrise at 6am. lol. fml.

sooooo yah. i bought stuff. that's pretty much it. i didn't really do anything exciting. no one wants to or has time to give me attention, so whatevers. *cries in a corner*

continuing on....

diet/ fitness wise...i think i'm toning up and slimming down a bit. it may just be psychological though. i really need to measure myself and compare it to my previous stats. i still can't fit it the old jeans that i WANT to fit in but i think my chest, waist, stomach, and legs look better than before...i really hope it isn't psychological hahah...

i didn't work on veterans day so i slept in. i ate breakfast/lunch around 5:30pm and then asked my brother if he wanted to go to the mall with me. surprisingly, he did and i got a dark denim jacket from cotton on as a result.

24.00$ + tax

around 26$ total, not bad. i got my light denim one for like 33$ total. i now have a light and a dark denim jacket. woo woo~ i swear, if i was a girl, a jacket like that would be found in cotton on too...but for like 13$ instead...oh the shittyness of being a guy.

i had a really long boring lecture on wednesday and i realized i don't even really need to pay attention in that class anymore either because there isn't a final but just a paper and presentation due. being the city and transit geek that i am...i'll be presenting and writing my paper on mass transit AND THE ONLY ONE TO DO SO...lol...i can't believe no one else thought of doing it. there are like a crap load of people doing immigration and the "no child left behind" policy...*yawn* heh.

i ended up just facebook chatting, looking at slickdeals, and texting to pass the time. my notes for that class is in my laptop and it basically goes..."lecture 6" and the page is just left blank because i never write anything...lol

i meant to type "next and BEHIND me prob think im a weirdo already [for looking at mens underwear in class]"

xmas theme because i'm cheesy like that.

lol i bought camouflage print briefs in three different colors for about 26$.

i got these and i now just need the stripper body to go with them.

i also shopped around 6 days ago and bought these.

after watching thor and xmen first class (both pretty good movies), i want to collect novelty marvel and dc stuff... AHHHHH lol. i also want more mickey mouse shirts...but they're f'kn expensive (to me). these are from walmart so they're like pretty cheap. i don't even think they could go on clearance because they're cheap as is...7.50$ each

i got these tanks at pacsun...i think they look tacky yet cool at the same time...tacky if you don't match them with the right bottoms but cool if you do...yanno?...lol AND since i am psycho, i bought 4 pairs of hollister shorts all in different colors previously...so i'm good...i'm good...lol...i just need to wait until spring/summer now.

ummm yeah...i don't have much to say lol. i should get about reading then.
i might have a youtube video up soon (in a week or two), when my acne subsides...lol...i dunno maybe :d

get your music on.

that's all. ciao.

try with me.

2011-10-31T01:11:00.000-07:00

i'm not dead. i've just been sleeping at ungodly hours...working...schooling...and not having time to really type entries, lol.

i didn't really do anything that interesting since my last entry. i ate a lot and bought stuff...that's pretty much it.

MAMA WILL HER-WELP YOU!!!!!!...fail...

i went to a hot pot/ birthday gathering on friday. i went to buy the birthday cake after my shift at work and i was driving like a maniac because i did not know what time the bakery my mom likes to buy cakes from closes. i did get to the bakery on time though and i haven't spoken mandarin in forever. it was so awkward.

i just stepped in and the lady was like
你要买蛋糕吗？？
and i was like ... uhh yahhh : )!
and she was like... "go ahead and look at the cakes first and i'll help you in a minute (in mandarin)"
and i'm just like...ummmmm....
and then this other girl was like "for how many people?"
and i'm like... "less than 10? (in crappy mandarin and repeated in English)"
and the lady approached me and asked me what cake i'd like and i was just like "the white ones are fine (in mandarin)"
and then she asked which one and pointed to a white/purple one and said that one was taro...or something and i was like..."do you guys just have regular ones? (putong de?)" and she got me a strawberry one.

i fucking love birthday cake lol, well... if it's from a good bakery anyway. i don't like supermarket made cakes. i especially don't like ones from western supermarket chains.

so ummm...at the birthday party...i took some hard liquor shots...it was kind of fun...lol. i was tipsy for a bit but i was still mentally there...haha. i had my first tequila shot ever. it is by far the liquor i'd prefer the most when it comes to hard liquor i've tried, so it'd be 1) tequila w/ lime and salt 2) vodka... 3) whiskey...

i had some jello shots and an orange slice where instead of an actual orange...it was an orange jello slice/shot. that was pretty good lol. you can't really taste the alcohol but yeah...you feel its effects.

i studied and chatted with a friend last night at ten ren. it was...somewhat productive...and counterproductive...but fun.

i tried this boba place last thursday called "le arbre" and...yeah...it wasn't that great. shaved ice wasn't that great either lol. my friend and i are going back to class 302 this thursday after trying so many crappy shaved ices over the week haha.

i'm so dumb... I've bought popcorn chicken from these boba places soooo many times and never thought of asking them for ketchup. only recently, have i learned that you can get ketchup for your popcorn chicken and it tastes worlds better...-___- b

the only thing that was really interesting since my last entry was the discovery of this tea house in metropolitan Los Angeles. i wanted to eat at a place that served milk tea with their meal and my friend was like..."how about this place? bun bun tea house? it's nearby" and i looked it up on my own phone and only saw pictures of burgers. we were both like...what? and i showed her my phone and showed her all the burgers and my friend was like "burgers? tea house? let's go" and it turned out to be a like Taiwanese burger joint. it was pretty cool because i thought places that like only existed in Asia.

i had an unagi burger which has a rice bun and comes with fries and a potato ball (it's like a fried ball of mashed potatoes). i also got a milk tea. my friend just got a regular burger and substituted sweet potato fries instead of regular fries but supposedly everything is made from scratch and the meat was really nice lol

...continuing on...
i started this entry 8 days ago. i must finish nao.

i recently downloaded the kakaotalk app and it's amazing HAHA. it's like i'm reconnected with my closest childhood friend before she left for busan. ahhh. i miss her.

i like the kakaotalk text tones too. i want to use it as my own text tone but i don't know how to retrieve them from the app lol T_T.

there was a heatwave the past week and on my thursday night outs...we couldn't even get shaved ice. lame sauce. we ended up going to phoenix because nothing really good was open past 10.

this was alright...not really a fan of this place

the day after, lisa asked if i wanted to go out with her so she could get some night shots for her photography class. we went to this place called factory tea bar and that place sucks. never again lol.

the food and drinks were alright, but the place was very loud and chaotic feeling...ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
i literally saw a table with JUST kids with ipod touches and ipads sitting together without parents and other kids running around. it totally reminded me of work...lol

lisa and i playing around on a freeway overpass...which is not good for our health because freeway air is the worst. it's basically just car exhaust lol.

fast forwarding...several days...

i took my first midterm on thursday...i did okay...not my best...*cry* but whatever... i did my best...
two more midterms to go...

didn't do anything after because my friend like LITERALLY wanted to study, so i let her be.
i trimmed my hair...bought some stuff online
i had dinner with my little brother because there was no one home, nothing to eat, i was nice enough to ask, and so i went back to that burger joint because i wanted burgers and i wanted milk tea.

the burger was really good...service wasn't that great. my brother and i got asked to move to another table so that a bigger party could sit together. a party of loud effing college freshman that talk like they own the place...ugh. you can probably tell that i like peace and solitude. i mean, yeah, i can totally chat too but i'm at least mindful.

anna was replying to my texts during dinner too. ahhh i miss her. if i could fly to busan in an instant...i would...and i don't even really want to go to that city hahaha...busan satoori is too different for me..lol

funny how busan's metrorail system is only about 10 miles shorter than LA's metrorail system, and our metrorail system barely reaches anything...sigh lol

ok...i really want to get this post published now...it's been like 2 weeks in draft form, lol.

my older girl cousin got married last week (week of 21st)...there was no photobooth...i was super sad about that haha.

cute gift box but no cute wedding video...huhu. there was this one lady who sung for all the guests and it was like amazingly good. it was like chinese trot? lol...like...han hong type singing? yeahhh. everyone was like "womg!"

i took my brother and i to this chinese fast food place place with okay shaved ice because my favorite nearby HK sit down restaurant is going through a remodel. i went twice to just see a sign in chinese i couldn't read until i showed my mom via cellphone pic and asked her what it says LOL... i was heartbroken T____T lol. *dies* i actually just really like that restaurant because if you dine in and you buy milk tea, you get free refills. the food is pretty good and affordable too. yep yep.

i got one of these at work

i was like AW! and then read it and it was about my friend/ ex coworker so i took a picture of the text and MMS'd it to her to read lol. i have a shoe box full of hand written letters like this...i think i should get rid of them...lol

hung out with lisa on friday night after work. i cancelled plans to meet up with some other people just because lisa is worth it. one of my best high school friends ♥.

for halloween weekend, i went clubbing but it was cut short because of some drama related shits but i won't go into detail. i didn't really want to go anyway, so it was alright. my friends and i wanted to sell our tickets because they were going for 50$ at the door. crazayyyy. i saw a bunch of cool and cute costumes that night. i saw a lot of DTLA residential dog walkers with cute ass costumes too, like this one dude with a REALLY CUTE boy scout outfit from UP! walking his beagle. SOOOO KAWAII DESUNE!! i also saw this cute "jack in the box" head couple. i wonder where they got those huge head bobble things!

the club was in a re-utilized old historic financial building in downtown. SOOO coool. geeky...i know...

i went as a biker inspired from lady gaga's "judas" music video because i pretty much didn't really need to buy anything lol. i'm so cheap, but yeah. i ended up changing jackets so i can pull up my sleeves higher and wear more bracelets. i also added a dog tag necklace and instead of being topless, i wore an A shirt or whatever...ribbed tanks...etc. WHICH WAS GOOD because i saw these half naked dudes and they had hella nice bodies and i totally felt out of shape after seeing them T___T. once i get a stripper-like body, i WILL BE ONE OF THEM!!

belt along with the outfit

i bought revlon colostay eyeliner pencil because i've seen positive reviews on it, but that shit still smudges! ARRRGH!! so yeah, don't buy it. i think it does have pretty good staying power but yeah..it smudges...even though it claims to be waterproof and smudgeproof.

i think i'll just do a version 2 of the outfit for work this afternoon but instead of a black bandana, it'll be white and i'll wear a black grunge-y tee with a light washed denim jacket, black glazed jeans + same accessories. etc and no eyeliner. i'm not gonna bother filling my brows or doing my face much either, too much wooork.

after clubbing, we just headed to "our home? apartment?" lol and had some hotpot and talked. my friend was a "FBI agent" or something and had handcuffs. they were really nice ones too for some fake china handcuffs. the metal was really heavy and nice quality Lol.

i was totally reminded of rihanna and britney "S and M" remix after playing with them for awhile lol

i've been thinking of opening a youtube channel to like...just do what i normally do, but on video...like talk about my purchases and stuff...but i don't know...haven't gotten around to it. if any of my followers (or actual readers...which is like 2 people) have any suggestions, you can definitely tell me ;d. I DO HAVE AN AWESOME SCREEN NAME ALREADY THOUGH AHAH!

i bought a bunch of tees from threadless, shorts from hollister, and accesories from f21...if anyone wants to see...just mention...otherwise...i'll let the tumbleweeds continue to roll on by...

...okay bye.

it's a beautiful night. we're looking for something dumb to do

2011-09-30T23:17:00.000-07:00

hey baybeh~ i think wanna marry you ♥.

ahhhh...i keep trying to get an entry up but time keeps flying by and i can't keep up.
i'll type a bit before i go to bed, i suppose.

i switched to google chrome today (27th) because firefox was being a laggy ass bitch and wouldn't work with me. i kept loading multiple tabs and it'd just say "connecting..." while other web browsers loaded the same sites fine, it just may have taken a bit longer. i'll only use firefox to download from videos from youtube or songs from tumblr now, i guess. i miss how adblock on firefox was able to skip the commercials from youtube though, but whatever.

...so i had jury duty the week on the 19th and i thought i was going to get lucky and not have to show up for the whole week, but that didn't happen. T-T... i had to show up on thursday but i'll get into that later.

on the 19th, i did not have to show up to jury duty so i got to go to work. lisa happened to work in the morning and our summer was ending on thursday, so i was like "wanna have dinner then?" after i got home from work and she was like "sure!". perfect timing man! lol.

we got our class 302 fill. oh myyyy goddd! i still haven't found a place that's closer, equally generous, and just as good. T___T. i didn't really like my fried rice though...it was like...something my own mom could make. i should've gotten a lunch box.

i got summoned to report for jury duty on thursday and spent my whole fucking day awake since around 8:00am. spent most of my day spamming out SOS messages to my friends about how i'd rather die and stuff. jury duty is the lamest shit ever. if i got paid very well to go, then it might be a different story but i don't and i still have school, so fuck jury duty.

the picture ami has shown me twice is forever ingrained in my head.

sat in the waiting area until 10:30'ish and got called to go to a court room...*sigh*. sat and listened to some boring ass jurors introduce themselves and be questioned whether they were able to "judge without any biases". time passes and it came lunch time. i walked to panda express and texted lisa and my other friend until it was time to go back. i got to sit in the juror area by 3pm and introduced myself...student...not married...never served as a juror...BLAH BLAH BLAH. the judge was like "when does school start for you?" and i was like "today..." and she was like "why didn't you get it postponed?" and in my mind i was like "uh? i want to get this shit done with you fucking bitch." but in reality...i was like "class starts at 6 so...*shrug*. when i was asked if i could "judge fairly", i replied "it depends on the time frame BECAUSE I WOULD MUCH RATHER STUDY THAN BE HERE".

later the lawyer representing the person who wanted this case put to court had the nerve to ask me if what i said was correct. he "acknowledged" my honesty and i rambled on shit about me believing in the "survival of the fittest" theory because i seriously believe that it's natures way of "weeding" bad people out of society. this person basically cracked under whatever circumstance the person was in and is now paying for it, so the person isn't "fit" for society. am i a nut job or what? does anybody else think this way?

the lawyer was all trying to be witty and shit saying "i know of that from the animal kingdom" and i got home thinking...wtf? humans are animals too. what a douche.

so anyway, after i said that shit. i was dismissed after. WOOT! it pays off to be a selfish bitch. HAYYY~ HAHAHA. i left the courthouse around 4 and ate a little at home before i went to visit my workplace and proceeded to class afterwards. i never missed work so much. lol.

when i was at my workplace, i asked my coworker if he wanted to carpool with me since he didn't have his parking permit yet so i took him. he ended up leaving earlier than i did though, so his brother picked him up while i sat through class until early or late 8'ish pm. my first lecture at a "real" college was alright. it wasn't that much different than a CC. my coworker was nice enough to show me where my classroom was anyway, so it helped me a ton. his classroom was across campus too, so that was very nice of him. : )

i got home in a super good mood because the weekend basically started. i was free from jury duty and basically done with the first week of school. i asked my friend if she wanted to get shaved ice near my house with me after her real estate class and she was like "sure!", but she mentioned if i wanted to go to class 302 instead since her class could possibly end at 10 and the place closes at 11pm...so i was like "why not?" because class 302 closes/starts to clean up at 11:30 anyway. my friend got some squid stew and i got some basil chicken. we shared a green tea shaved ice and it was delishhhh.

the coming saturday was then my coworker's beautiful wedding. it was my first time attending a ceremony during the day with the vows being read to the audience and the couple. how my coworker met her husband is the cutest thing too...ahhhhh~ i hope something like what happened to her happens to me...*daydreams*

basically, her husband and her met by accident. her husband paged the wrong beeper number and happened to page my coworker. they had an awkward first conversation but the second time they called each other was because of sheer boredom, and they became best friends since. they were together for 12 years, and now they're officially married. 12 years is soooo long. that's when you know f'sho that they ain't gonna separate anytime soon. i learned that 5 years together is pretty much nothing lol...so 12 years is, like,...f'sho something lol.

my coworker hired a really cute photographer couple. i was quite surprised to find that they were my age. the girl photographer was sooooo pretty and stylish. it turned out she was a fashion blogger and a somewhat popular one. i never heard of her, but i met jenny from (http://www.jenny-fromtheblock.com/) during dinner. interesting... i think she looks much prettier in person than in pictures though...something about her in pictures seems sort of off.

dinner was fun. my friends and i took a shitload of photo booth pictures because we're fucking insane and it's free. loll.

after the dinner, my friends and i crashed a house party and they got pretty wasted. i karaoke'd most of the night away and watched some people jump into a cold pool with just their dresses and some in their undies...it was...strange...lol. i would've...if i had extra undies...but i didn't.

some drunk bitches and i ~ (i like how my body looks here...lol...)

i left my car at my friend's house and she drove me to the house party. she later got umm...wasted and fell asleep, so i had to drive her car with her inside to her house before i could get my own self home...lol. my other sober'ish friend and i was like...ummm i could drive her home but i'm not gonna drag her into her house...i'll probably leave the windows down so she could breathe and find herself waking up in her driveway. LOL. and he was like...you should take a picture, while i was like...HAHAHA YEAH~ just incase she goes missing. lol.

when i got to my friends driveway, i was like "i'm not carrying you into your house" and she woke up but she was like "where are my shoes??" and i was like ohhh shittt HAHAHA. my other friend didn't bother finding them for her LOL. he carried her into the passenger seat so it didn't cross my mind lol.

i was suppose to go to the getty villa the next day, and i really did. i got home, showered, and got about 4 hours of sleep before my friend called me at like 9am and asked if i still wanted to go. being the trooper that i am, i agreed to go and stuck with it. i never been there anyway, so i wanted to see it. there were lots of naked statues....not as many fountains as i was hoping for...but it was...alright...i'd rather go to an aquarium or natural history museum but yeah...the family forum is the best part of the place man! that's where all the activities are...hahah...

what you do is...make boring FUN~ like my friend and i.... haha....

"cause when i leave for the night~ i ain't comin' back~"

*throws pokeball* use water gun!!

yackin' out water...or weak sauce watergun...

you can see the contours of my fatness here...*literal barf*

the place is really pretty though...but yeah...like half of the museums/ attractions in the south land ...it's owned by some rich person and he's just exhibiting his art collection to the public (basically).

creepy.

after exploring the getty villa, my friends and i went to santa monica place because i saw it as we headed towards the villa. i've never been there, so i wanted to go. i thought it was like a huge outdoor shopping mall complex but it was only partially that and basically like a huge shopping "main street" type thing (with pedestrian only roads like how times square was converted to). my friend got some stuff at nordstroms and i found some good tanks at urban outfitters.

i got both of them for about 19.xx$ total. i didn't know UO gave out reusable bags when you make purchases too, so i was kind of like WOOOAH SO COOL. i liked the skull one because it reminds me of britney's shirt from her "i wanna go" mv and i'm totally a punk at heart lol. i liked the one on the right because it was sailor'ish.

my friend and i are trying this weekly meetup thing after our night class on thursdays to talk about how our week went and catch up. it's perfect because we don't have to study or read that night anyway because we don't have friday classes. we went to class 302 again yesterday and i got the low fat grilled pork lunch box, she got like some chicken gizzard soup, and we shared a mango and strawberry shaved ice. we now just have to find more places that are open until midnight and also has desserts. good stuff! good stuff! weee~

today is the end of the work/school week. WOOT~!

i was invited to go eat at a brazilian steak house tonight but i declined because it was about 30~35$ to dine there. frankly, i'd rather buy that zara x playboy white v neck shirt i really, really, really want instead...

i think that is all i have to share...yep...

burning up forever and always.

2011-09-19T00:37:00.000-07:00

no happy ever after, just disaster.

i start school on thursday! weee...i guess my first purchases on my chase slate card will be on books because my mom helped me pay for tuition until i can pay her back. i'm suppose to get about 1000$ in grants per semester and i'll give her the rest in chunks from what i make at my part time job (i guess, new tv for my room will have to wait. i'll remain tv-less for another month or so...*tears*). man... even though i hated feeling like some second class student or technically not a real college student because i attended community college for so long, i liked it because i was pretty much paid to go to school and tuition was covered by financial aid. T____T...now i just need to finish up the rest of this crap as fast as possible so i can be a graduate and not waste money on school. i'll then go on to be even more of an adult in finding a full time job, consider graduate school, and saving money in order to move out...

huhu...i don't want to grow up...peter pan complex at max...suffering withdrawl~~~ : ( *crawls into fetal position* it doesn't help that i'll be going to my coworker's wedding this saturday! that'll be the first wedding i was personally invited to and attending without any family members.

sooo...ummm...yeah...back tracking...
i wanted all my sides and the back of my head shaved off because it was really hot about two weeks ago? and i just couldn't deal with all the sweating. that got done...and then i was asked if i wanted the top trimmed. i was like "why not?" and a shit load of hair came off. i'm not really mad about it though but...yeah...feels so short now...but i wanted it short to look nice for the wedding anyway.

guess i'll be going back to black and low maintenance hair for a while.

i had my 3 month check up/ teeth cleaning on friday morning...

sadly, my mom's dental insurance was fucked up or something so i had to pay out of pocket. eighty bucks gone like that (i actually needed new x-rays too and that would've been another 90$ but the assistant said that we'll save it for the next appointment because of the whole insurance mishap), but it's for my health so i believe it's worth it. the dental assistants were really nice and helpful about the situation though. there were two dental assistants who are also receptionists and one asked me what was wrong with my insurance and i said that i didn't know and that i'd have to go through the mail when i get home and the other one said that at my age, i should still be eligible to be covered under my mom and that registration for it starts and ends around october/november so i should be on it immediately. if i didn't, i would have to wait a whole year to be covered again. it was a nice feeling to know that even though i could go to some other place for a cleaning (about 20$ cheaper) that they aren't, like, after my money and genuinely are trying to help.

the first dental assistant also said that when they dealt with the insurance company that they couldn't find my mom either, so i told my mom when i got home and she said she went to the benefits department at her work place to see what was wrong and apparently we were suppose to get new cards. (not surprised because i was thinking that the whole time). that was also nice of them to tell me that because they cancelled my mom's appointment for some reason before and my mom never rescheduled. they never bothered to like help her get a new appointment either. my mom was complaining about the costs anyway so i myself didn't bother to help her get an appointment, but the fact that she even looked to see if my mom was still covered was such a nice gesture.

i got done around 11am. my appointment was at 10:30. my friend asked me if i worked on friday a couple days before because she didn't and replued that i did have work, but i asked her if she wanted to get her audio deck for her accord installed because my other friend told me about how he did nothing this summer and it was ending, so i kind of accomplished two things at once! aha! i had one friend get her audio deck installed after getting it as a gift several years prior and gave the other friend something to do (and something he's good at) before classes start. we paid him in milk tea, but i'm planning to take him out with his when we all have time. i basically spent the rest of the morning with them until my shift started (@ 2:30pm).

my tech savvy friend actually helped me install my own audio deck a couple years ago because my dad's ghetto 97' rav4 only had a radio deck (AND FUCKING MANUAL WINDOWS). i thought the whole installation would be quick because the rav4 one was soooooo easy to do. the manual for the accord one was also rated easy compared to swapping a civic's audio deck so i thought it would take no more than one hour.

it sadly took almost an hour and a half. i was SOOOOO scared of being super late for work because i did not want some mad kids waiting for me to get them from school. i made it just a bit later than usual but not too late. the day was pretty gloomy though so it seemed kind of later than usual. it was definitely a team effort this time compared to my previous time. my tech savvy friend had his brother to help him then and he wasn't around this time. it all worked out in the end though. when my friend and i couldn't unscrew some screws, my tech savvy friend saved our asses. i'm so happy to have both of them as my friend...haha...

once we found that the deck was working like it should, we were rushing our asses screwing and putting everything back because i left my car at my friend's house thinking it wouldn't take that long (big mistake). left with a quick goodbye and i headed off to work with my own milk tea and pork chop bibimbap that i didn't get to eat and drink until i got to my workplace. hmph~!

i didn't really do anything after work...i went to in n out, ate it, then napped, then worked out, showered, and slept. i really wanted to go to class 302 but it's a friday night...i'm sure it would've been packed. -O- ... i was suppose to go on the tuesday of that week but it didn't happen. stupid bitch twin sister!

soooo. moving on.
my workplace has two locations now and i've been meaning to go into the other one to say hi to the kids i haven't seen since school has started and it was sooo cute hahaha! there's this first grade kid who i've missed so much and he really likes me (he would always say hi to me and ask me why i don't pick him up from school before), but i haven't seen him in like 3 months so i saw him for the first time again that day. i was like BRIAN!!! and he stares at me and says PETER! *runs* and i'm like BRIAN?!! what are you doing? can i have a hug?? and he goes PETER~ YOU ARE SO FUNNY and i gave him a big squishy hug. ~ he got fatter...lol. i said hello to some other kids i also missed, gave em' hugs, and left to the location i work at and just did my job. this ^ was on thursday.

ahhh...when i leave my workplace i'm going to miss having honest and blunt kids to talk to and play with. i will then convert to a crazy pet person with like 3 dogs and 2 cats and rely on them for social interaction. lol because we all know that i lack in the friends department...good friends anyway...like the ones i would give my all for.

continuing on...i don't think i did anything special on wednesday but i did go out on tuesday because my twin sister wanted to go dress shopping for the wedding we're both attending. i met her from work, if ya' didn't know, but she left almost a year ago because she needed to work more hours to get by. this was the day where i was suppose to go to class 302 again but noooo, we had to go to another mall so i had to look for another shaved ice place near there. on the bright side, my twin sis found a 60$ dress @ HM marked down to 3.00$. it was the most amazing discount i've ever seen on an item. it's like a 59.99$ tag and then a red sticker that says 3.00$ on it haha. we're suppose to match so after she got the dress, i had to go find a shirt that'd match and i found a dress shirt for around 7.xx$ total at JC Penny. it was a pretty good shopping night, but disappointing dinner night. i want to wear a bow tie to the wedding dinner so i still need to get one this week.

i didn't eat dinner until after shopping but she ate before coming to my house and taking me out. bitch~~ :[
so yeah~~ i was looking for places on yelp with my phone and a bunch of places around the area closed at 10pm which is blasphemy -____-! i found this boba place that closed at midnight so we went there since the reviews weren't bad.

my twin sis got some shitty salad LOL and i got the chicken teppanyaki with black bean sauce.

we shared a (not that great and totally looked like a penis) shaved ice afterwards. it was matcha green tea flavored, but it didn't really taste like anything. i think mochi on shaved ice doesn't really make it taste better also. the red and green beans were good though. i didn't like the ice texture...class 302 is the best so far. it was totally like eating ice cream. this...not so much...

while eating and watching the food channel? my twin sis mentioned this astrology site and asked me if i wanted to read it because it was like pretty accurate for her, so i did it for myself with no interest in reading hers :x lol ... i thought it was pretty accurate for the most part but some of them were kind of conflicting. for example, it said i was more inclined to get into debt but it also said i was practical? it also said i have a horrible relationship with my mom because i lacked a maternal past or something but i'm actually more of a momma's boy and it's my dad that's more that figure. i spent like a bunch of my night at the boba place reading it lol and then i got tired and she took it to say which parts of the horoscope was totally me. lol.

here's some of the interesting stuff that i think pertains to me.

He is independent, autonomous, and has progressive ideas.
Weaknesses: an unusual, rebellious and revolutionary spirit.
He is likeable and sociable (not sure about sociable :P). Very sensitive to environmental conditions and surroundings. He likes home, habits, comfort and his little world. Very caring and protective of loved ones.
He likes family life, peace and quiet -- he likes to stay at home, surrounded by loved ones, in agreeable circumstances. Strongly influenced by the mother.
You long for a sense of true belonging, but you may be quite restless in your search.
He is frank, honest, full of vigor and ambition. He is strong-willed and powerful at work. He is a little hard on himself but, above all, on others whose capacity for action is not as great.
He has changeable moods, a reserved character, is stubborn and lacks assurance.
He likes to live in a dream, in the world of imagination, and can hope so much that reality checks can be brutal.
He is susceptible, has superficial sensitivity and is sometimes irascible.
Not necessarily loud or flamboyant, but he often has a quiet way of stirring others up. Delights in exposing what he deems biases in others' way of thinking. Very quick to contradict others, and to offer a different perspective, he enjoys intellectual debates. Amazing powers of observation, and a quirky way of looking at the world. Humorous and interesting. Loves practical jokes and raising eyebrows.

...there's like a lot to read and i never went through it all but i remember reading one that says that in my youth, i would never find someone to love until later and that i'm apparently good in bed :X LOL...so maybe i should just believe in the stars...lol...there was also this thing that said like...though i'm not like the group leader, i'm known in the group and often feared. i then was like...hmmm...maybe that's why no one ever talks to me, lol.

i don't remember doing anything on monday...but i had dinner with my work family on sunday. we had a steak dinner. it was suppose to be a potluck but i think it'll end up being steak dinners or like a certain type of food from now on and if someone's not at the house yet, then they'd call via cellphone to pick up an ingredient or something. they ended up calling me and i ended up having to buy cucumbers, apricots, and A1 steak sauce for them.

funny...because i don't really buy groceries so it was adult'ish of me to do so. i was like...what does an apricot look like? i even called them to ask lol! i was then about to get peaches instead i knew it looked like peaches but i didn't know what they looked like exactly. my twin sis couldn't describe it but when i touched the peaches, they were all SUPER soft. i ended up finding apricots instead because i knew by touching the peaches, that they were no good. i just picked the apricots by seeing if they were even in color and firm...and just made sure the cucumbers were firm and enough for all of us. it also took me awhile to find A1 steak sauce because i was in a chinese market and i wasn't looking hard enough. i was actually kind of surprised they had it haha. if i couldn't find it, i was gonna call back and ask them if korean bbq sauce was ok instead LOL.

it looks pretty sahhhweeeeet~ no?

my steak ended up being really rare though and they had to cook it longer than everyone else...hmph...

they were giving me weird looks when i asked for mine to be well too? am i the only person who likes my food to be cooked for sure? it ended up being medium well which was fine. as long as i ain't in the toilet all day the next day.

we watched the movie "the hammer" afterwards. i never heard of that movie, but it was pretty good! i liked it. it was set in LA too. loves it.

went out with my friend (the one who got the audio deck swapped) the night before that steak dinner. we just shared a grilled eel fried rice and then tried out this new shaved ice place that's really close to my house. it wasn't that good but i liked it better than the matcha green tea one pictured above.

i thought the grilled eel fried rice would be something like fried rice with chopped unagi all over it but it wasn't. it was good either way though...mmmm

original shaved ice + condensed milk + mangoes + aloe + lychee? i don't remember lol.

hmmmm...yeah...other than stuffing my fat ass self...

i changed my cellphone wallpaper. i would think that tumblr would have a bunch of nice doraemon pictures because everyone on there fucking loves rillakuma, totoro, and stuff there...but it doesn't...i only found two good pictures...heh! pitiful.

makes my cellphone so much brighter and happier now lol

i also forgot to mention that i have to keep checking for jury duty this week...i told my boss like a month before and i was expecting her to just give me the week off but i texted her yesterday and you can say she's, like, one of the coolest people ever?? lol

i have two bosses, and i learned something cool and funny about the other one too...lol. my twin sis and i were talking about like pop music and stuff because we were watching music videos on the television via a laptop on youtube and she was like "i wish there was clubs that played more pop songs" and he goes "they do at rage", and then there was just a dead silence after HAHAHA. we were like "woah...he's gone gay clubbing" in our minds and he could totally read that LOL. he was like " a lot of straight people go there too, you know?" to cover himself and it was like the funniest shit ever lol.

you could say that my bosses are also my friends. i really do adore them and know they have me in mind whenever i'm not around. such a blessing to work with them.

so yahhhhh....on an ending note. i was looking back on all the old facebook pictures i was tagged in since i wanted to see how skinny i really was and i found some pretty skinny ones lol. i'm not sure if i liked my old frame better or my currrent...so i'm pretty much working on a nice in between now...


aug 2007

2008

now...i'm like...

what have i done to myself ... : ( ~~ but one thing is for sure....i won't let myself look like rob kardashian right now...or atleast what he looked like during the bora bora trip episodes of keeping up with the kardashians .

i'm trying to get to francisco lachowski measurements and apparently they are...

BUST 90 - 35"
WAIST 70 - 27"
HIPS 91 - 36"

so okay...

my current measurements are

BUST - 41" (goal : 38" ~ 35")

WAIST - 33.75" (goal : 31"/30")
HIP - 36.25" ( goal: 36" ~ 35"?)

soooo i'm aiming to lose 2-3 inches all around at the least...shouldn't be too hard...lol

*note that waist measurement and jean size are different. my current jean size is 31 x 30 for most places...but sometimes a 31 is loose (@ hollister anyway).

so ya'll know i own makeup. i found this cool DG inspired tutorial and planning to use it for the wedding (or atleast a less dramatic version of it). i was actually bored and tried it on myself a couple days ago too lol but i don't have really dark contouring cream or powder. i ended up using a black brow pencil because if you don't use it well, it ends up looking really fake so i'm sort of trying to waste it by using it to contour. i just drew the lines and kept blending the blackness out lol. i ended up looking dirty but not good dirty like in the video.

soooo coool.
it doesn't really work too well for my face though because it's so...like...plump.
some shitty webcam pictures lol. i have a bit of a gray cast because my BB cream (that i'm also trying to finish) is really pale and gray toned. i even mixed it with darker foundation and lisa was like "woah...your face looks whiter" -__- lol. i end up replying "MAN! i even mixed it with darker foundation"

basically my face looks less egg shaped and more defined. my nose isn't as flat looking (not that it is).

i also have eyeliner and ummm...definitely only using it for special occasions or something because i end up looking like a wannabe goth. LOL...it's because guys look better with smudged liner than really nice drawn liner like girls do. kpop male stage eye makeup is like full on girl'ish too so it's not like one you can wear out to dinner and think you look normal, but if you wanna look like TOP from big bang...you can probably just tightline and waterline your eyes and then smudge it out a bit with your ring or pinky finger. i can't really tightline because i have single eyelids.

but you'll probably end up looking like this...hahaha....

and here's some other silly webcam pictures and one from my DSLR for a more realistic depiction of my face, i guess...lol. isn't makeup awesome?? lol

ummm yeah...i don't look like the same person lol. i'm not photogenic. i look better in person...i swear. lol.

that's all. bye.

sandy eggo.

2011-09-09T05:24:00.000-07:00

soooo i'm back from my little labor day weekend get away to san diego. i'm darker than i've ever been in like two years...lol but still pale in comparison to my friend.

on a random note.

last night/at dawn when i went downstairs to get something to eat. my mom turned around to face me and said "your dad always watches vietnamese tv channels and yet he speaks horrible vietnamese" as she just had turned on the tv. i replied "well...maybe he wants to speak it better?". my mom then went on going "i don't really like the way they speak vietnamese on tv here. it is the southern accent and it's just like how it is in china. the north accent is much more sharp and clear opposed to the southern accent." and in the back of my mind i'm just like..."okay...this confirms that you're a communist or something" haha...but it's okay, my political beliefs mostly fall with socialists beliefs anyway, so i'm like a communist too. i am chinese after all : P

so yeah...san diego was nice. the food was good. "s" asked me how it was and i replied "it was nice. it was like a dirty hawaii" and he was like ahahaha~! lol because he didn't go with us.

we left around noon on saturday and got to san diego around like three or four o' clock.

we chilled for a bit at the house and then went out to eat. our vegan friend went with us again and we were going to eat at some place called "peace pies" or something and they were closed (or remodeling? or closed for good?) so we ended up looking some other place nearby to eat. we got to this nice mexican restaurant on sunset cliffs? blvd? and ate there instead. the place was called "Ranchos Cocina". everyone had some sort of vegetarian meal besides me (so asshole'ish of i but i didn't mean to :x ). i got the kalamari torta and it was FUCKING HUGE!! both horizontally and vertically. i was like "how am i suppose to eat these? (with knife and fork or like a burger)" because you'd have to like unhinge your jaw to eat it. i ended up eating it like a burger. i made it work HAHA!

it was sooooo goood. it was like a fish burger but with squid instead, so the texture is more chewy. oh mah lord~ i want more.

after eating at "Ranchos Cocina", we headed to our rented home and slept around again until it got a bit later. we got ready for that "fashion whore party" that my friend found from yelp. i'm kind of glad we didn't dress up all over the top because it was suppose to be like "barbie or 'gothic' grunge" theme and everyone there were either not dressed or dressed "pin up" like betty paige. AHAH...i felt so out of place. the last club fashion show i attended was ten times nicer.

we showed up pretty late (almost 11pm?) and yeah...it was like yawn~~. my friend bought us some drinks. i took a shot of whiskey, he took a shot of whiskey, she took a shot of tequila, vegan took nothing because he doesn't really drink and other she took a bottle of blue ribbon beer. i was kind of tipsy after that shot...that shit burns. i recently looked up the alcohol content of whiskey and it varies from 50%~60% alcohol content. i was like "holy fuck" LOL. i should've ate more before leaving the house but i was alright by the time we left. i was totally wobblin' and shit when the fashion show was going on lol.

i saw a bare boob and many side boobs during that fashion show. the stuff displayed was pretty mediocre. there was some stuff i liked but yeah...for the most part that stuff was pretty mediocre, mediocre designs, mediocre "models", mediocre, mediocre, mediocre. when the show was over around midnight, practically everyone left to go outside to see their friends or something and only my friends were dancing. (awkward). i joined in and we were dancing on the damn runway. vegan was all like "we need to pose and take pictures" and totally threw us in the corner of the stage to pose for pictures. he then told us to walk down the runway for pictures at the end of it LOLL -___-. i look like fugly shit though lol.

i wore my denim jacket, t shirt that says "death" and a star pictured on it, black and silver bracelets, coated black jeans, and boots....i look squat and wide...i'm working on it lol. i will get fuckin' skinny legs like the members of INFINITE!! (jk)

ooh yeah~ i finally knows how it feels to be on a runway HAHAHA!

i was kind of hysterical and still wobblin' then and kicked two glass cups off the stage :x LOL it was so dark! it ain't my fault! the girls in our group were still wanting to dance so we drove up the street to go to this other club and im like....uhmm....it's like 1am....one knocked out in the car before we even got there and there was a lot of police activity and no parking so they kind of gave up (thank god). we drove to this 24 hour mexican place for some food and headed home. two people passed out in the car and three of us ordered some food.

i got a quesadilla and carne asada fries...i didn't even finish it all. it was sooo much. half of it ended up in the trash come monday morning T____T such a waste. the quesadilla was just like bread and cheese. i thought it'd be like a chicken quesadilla like from taco bell...so foolish of me : ( lol. i got taco bell on monday on the way home though, so i was happy.

my friend helped me tightline and waterline my eyes for the night but when she tried to tightline them...you couldn't even tell anything was done because of my single eyelids so she just did the bottom for me. it was cool! i even bought my own eyeliner today (thursday) to practice out of sheer boredom...ugh lol.

pictures from my crappy VGA front facing camera

i "cried" most of it away by the time i got home though.

here's a picture of the fashion show...lol...

the next day we headed for the beach (mission beach, to be exact). it was...sort of crowded but yeah...basically we just layed in the sun for like 1.5 hours before we went to find some place to eat. i haven't walked on the sand in a long time and it was killer HAHA. it was like walking and stair stepping at the same time. i was always the last one in the back of the group. i was definitely getting a work out in. HAHAHAHA....

the sun kept going away and coming back. that was pretty shitty but i definitely prefer tanning on the beach than at a hotel in the middle of the desert because there's a coastal breeze to cool you down opposed to the blazing sun piercing through your eyelids and nothing to really cool you down. but if it wasn't for everyone wanting to tan, then i wouldn't even join them because i hate the sun and its harmful effects anyway. i was literally the only person that brought sunscreen. this tan glow to me is a refreshing change though, i must admit.

my peoples were craving pizza so we yelped a place with our phones and walked to it. it was a pretty long walk (to me). even though it was a vegetarian pizza, the pizza was pretty good. i wanted meat, but i would have to wait until dinner...

after the pizza, we walked back to the car which was SUPPPPER FARRR AWAY but yeah...we made it eventually. i lost a towel from the house on the way there :x it wouldn't have happened if SOMEONE didn't ask me to hold it because his bitch ass was complaining about holding stuff all day.

we headed to mount soledad before heading home. it was like that thing in brazil...but it was a cross instead + a little military memorial beside it and not as grand or epic looking. the view wasn't as nice as it could be because of the marine layer coming in and all the clouds. i got some sort of "dark" pictures out of it.

times like that i wish i had a telephoto lens. it was also kind of discouraging when you see like other asian "kids" around at mount soledad with nicer cameras and better lenses too...zzzzzz~ *holds up middle finger :x* atleast i brought a tripod.... :x

we then headed home to shower off the sand and get ready for dinner. we originally planned to have phil's bbq that night but when we got to the restaurant, there was a line out the door. it was fuccccccking long too. we were like HELL NO! WE AIN'T WAITING IN THIS SHIT! and headed towards downtown to find a place.

we ended up in a bar (no surprise...because two of my friends LOVE beer *gag*). the place also had a vegetarian burger on the menu so we went with vegan friend in mind.

sick...dark...strong...beer...with some tacos and stuff...finger food.

afterwards, they wanted to go to this dueling piano bar thing where two people would battle each other through piano and stuff but there was a line outside and there was a fee to get in so i was like "uhhh fuck that" with vegan buddy. they ended up giving up and we walked by the "ghiradelli ice cream and chocolate shop" in the gas lamp? district for ice cream. i shared a mint bliss or something like that.

it was reaaaally good but sooo little ice cream : ( ... the fudge was really yummy too because there was little chunks of chocolate in it. that's sooo genius.

what i really love about downtown san diego is how petco park is incorporated into it. it looks SOOO cool with the huge lights beaming down towards the baseball field and the high rise towers surrounding it.

the picture makes the san diego skyline look kind of crappy but it's actually pretty nice in person. in some aspects it actually kind of beats the downtown atmosphere of home...

the last night there we played some drinking games before i showered and crashed for the night. is it weird that i hate drinking but i find drinking games fun? lol. i think it's the aspect of slowly getting incoherent and trying to gather concentration to NOT drink is what i like about it...lol. my friend wanted to watch "black swan" after i came out of the shower. i totally did not paying attention to any of it and she went into a bed room to sleep so i crashed on the couch for the rest of the night. i left the computer playing "sailor moon R" to lull me to sleep...worked like a charm. lol.

we attempted phil's bbq again once morning came around. i'm the last to wake up as usual and packed. i got all my comfortable/ heading home clothing on (because it's hotter at home than in SD) and made sure i didn't forget anything valuable then bounced! there was still a line but not as long as the night before. it was only like a tiny one that moved somewhat quickly. seating was a problem but it was alright. i admit it was good but not like orgasmic good that would leave me wanting to throw a tantrum if i didn't get more. i never really liked western food all that much. i definitely prefer it over the whole hyped up southern crawfish trend though.

it was sprinkling after phil's bbq but we went to balboa park anyway. it was labor day though, so lots of the museums were closed. i just took some pretty pictures and we just walked back to the car before heading to the brewery my friend has been wanting to take a tour around.

butterfly sex~

when we got to the brewery, basically all the final times left to tour were full but my friend asked the chick if it was possible to still tour, and the chick told her to ask the tour directors and she actually got her passes. well she got two passes which is perfect anyway because only two people in the group really enjoys beer. the passes were to sample beer but the whole group got to tour the facility after some begging. awesome sauce.

while they waited for the tour, we sat down at the outdoor bar and got a snackeroo. i got cake...i originally wanted ice cream but i knew it wouldn't be filling and it was like 10$ ice cream. lol.

it was a very fluffy cake...because it was a moose cake...it was delish...

then we toured!...it wasn't exciting...at all...

i tried the beers too...yeah...*gag*

after visiting the brewery in escondido, we headed back home. we stopped by mcd's because someone was craving fries and there was a taco bell right next to it so we went to both! LOL. i haven't had taco bell in forever. i was reunited with my cinnamon twists and chicken quesadilla ♥. all the "adults" in the car knocked out on the way home. it was just my twin sis and i who were damn awake for the whole trip so we got to chat before they woke up again (in anaheim). when we got to my twin sis's house, we loaded different cars and parted ways. twin sis drove me home and kicked it in my room because i needed her help with registering for classes. finally figured that shit out and i got my schedule set now. hoorah...too bad they're all night classes but i'm happy either way because i start at a new school. a new chapter begins~

we rewatched "200 pound beauty" on my ghetto tv before it started buzzing like crazy again and then migrated to the living room to finish. we had a vietnamese dinner. yeahhhh. i feel you kang han na~ i need me some lipo in my pudge lol and an adorable dog to love me lol

seeing all them white people in SD with their tight stomachs is really pushing me to work harder...so once school starts i'm going to run in the mornings since all my classes are at night. it'll help give me a set schedule to sleep earlier anyway. i'm going to figure out a calorie deficit for myself or some way to eat really lean...ughhh i love you too much carbs T__T but i also hate you PUDGE!

continuing on with the week...
on...
tuesday...didn't really do anything significant
wednesday...went to work

on thursday....
i picked up my prescription contacts from the optometrist. my stupid ass self forgot to bring my old left over pairs to exchange for updated pairs so i had to make two trips. i thought i'd be getting a check because of some rebate too but i'm not sure if they just discounted that rebate from the total price and the place just took the check for themselves or what...but my mom paid for it, so whatever...i asked for some contact lens cases because they always give them out but the chick didn't give them to me the first trip so before i left i made sure i asked. she was like "speaking of cases, what solution do you use?" and i was like "uhhh the green one?" and she just asked me if i wanted to try a new one and gave me this new one from bausch and lomb

she gave me three trial boxes actually...so generous : ) it looks very eco friendly but i don't know...that's just judging by appearance. i never read anything on the box yet, lol.

i headed to the mall afterwards to check out forever21 as i routinely do. i finally found some stuff in the clearance racks in my size and isn't cheap feeling. i found two denim shorts and tried them on. i liked em' and bought em'. i didn't know the additional 30% off was instore too so i instead of about 16$/ per shorts, it was 11$~12$. sah~weet. i also bought a iced green tea latte at starbucks because i still had a starbucks giftcard with 1.10$ on it. i finally got rid of it...now to get rid of my coffee bean gift card and my chili's one.

i went to walmart after the mall to buy some soda...and eyeliner because i forgot to put that in my drugstore.com purchase from the previous day. i also bought some undies and salt and vinegar chips. sadly, i didn't realize that the undies i grabbed were the wrong size...medium instead of small...they fit but iono...not really snug.

bought these from drugstore.com

if only this had higher SPF...then it'd be like the perfect moisturizer

i've been using this for like three years...i still can't find anything else that can beat it in terms of value and ingredients. vitamin E, BHA, SPF, and is 4oz instead of the usual like 1.7oz packaging. it's only 9.11$ too and it doesn't leave a white cast like the spf 30 sensitive skin eucerine moisturizer which is only good for the sensitive skin thing and the higher SPF.

Clean & Clear Advantage 3-in-1 Foaming Acne Wash

the previous cleanser i used was more of a cream cleanser so i used a lot more than needed...this one is a foaming one...so...hope it lasts longer...lol. it claims this...

ACELERA™ Complex helps dissolve surface oil
2% Salicylic Acid helps prevent breakouts

so yeah...i miss my cleansers from missha, but they don't even sell them online anymore. blah! they were so cheap and big...

this sounds crazy but my friend convinced me to get this to use as a primer for my oily face so i did. she swears by it...something about the ingredients being the same as some high end primer? or something? the reviews swear by it too...sooooo why not...i already spent 6$ on eyeliner that i might not even use that much...lol

funny reading the description "For years Monistat® has been the #1 prescription strength brand you trust for fast, effective relief in the sensitive vaginal area. Now the makers of Monistat® introduce a full range of prevention and treatment products for everyday intimate care needs."

dark foundation to mix with my other foundations because they're too damn white on my already white face.

so ya~~ i made a drugstore.com purchase because i'm running out of face cleanser. i was also gonna order from ELF because i liked the brush i used for the fashion show thing but to my surprise that drugstore.com also had their studio line for the same prices so i got the powder brush, concealer brush, HD powder, and brush cleaner :x ... if they didn't have it, i wouldn't know what else to order on the ELF site because i still needed 10$ or so to get to the 25$ free shipping...but yeah...make up *awkward silence* ... i don't wear make up on a daily basis. i just wear it when i'm going out with friends, to a dinner outside, pretty much when i'm hanging out. if it emasculates me, then whatever, like i give a shiiiit.

my friend recommended me their HD powder...finally got around getting it.

i really liked using this brush soooo i got myself one.

got this to replace my other concealer brush that already broke off its wooden stick -O- both my current brushes will go in the trash once these get heree

and got this because i've been using hand soap to clean my brushes since i had them :x

i seem so "high maintenance" but i swear i'm not. :x lol...i'm pretty lazy for the most part. go to school looking like crap, go to work looking like crap, wander the mall alone looking like crap, GONNA go to JURY DUTY looking like EXTRA crap (if i get summoned). YUUUPPPP!! ok i need to sleep. i have to go to work in like 7 hours.

you are my star.

2011-09-02T00:42:00.000-07:00

hello. back again.

i'm going to try to type a whole entry within an hour, but that never happens (and it didn't).
summer is slowly coming to a close and i'm trying to make the best of it. i register for classes on friday and i hope i get a nice schedule so i can work about the same amount of hours as i have during the spring. i'm so not looking forward to jury duty but i'm praying that i'll either sit through a day at court (hopefully on monday or tuesday) or not be called at all (doubt this would ever happen to me). i really hope it doesn't ruin my first day of school...i really don't want to bother figuring out what my professors emails are and informing them about it with the possibility of them not knowing and dropping me -___-. AHHHH!!! hope for the best...

i went back to work today after a two week break. it was a pretty good start to the school year and super sweet to see kids who weren't there for summer camp come back and say hi to me!! how they remember my name and stuff~so "awww".

the most random shit happened after work today (lol).

i asked my coworker if the paycheck for the last week of summer camp was out already and she was, like, "yeah" and got mine out so i went to the bank on the way home. i went to nearest "chase" bank to deposit and was approached by one of the employees who asked if i was making a deposit and if i needed help finishing it. i was like "what the hey~" and had her help me because i was in a good mood anyway and having someone else finish up my junk was fine with me.

so yeah....while waiting for my cashback request, she checked if my info was up to date and i was basically finishing up her sentences during that haha...it was like so if your phone number still (she says first three numbers and i say the next four)...wonder if that was asshole'ish of me to her. she then said, like, since i've been at chase for so long (since 2007) that if i would like to get a credit card from them and asked me if i even had one. even though i know i should be building credit so i could be approved for loans more easily and how this nation as a whole is pretty much based on borrowing money, i've never bothered applying for one. that chick was so surprised because she saw my ID and we're the same age. she went on about how it could be useful so i was like "since i'm here, why not" type mentality and went through with it. i wasn't surprised that i got approved. there isn't really a reason why i shouldn't be approved. i'm good with my money. lol...but then if i wasn't, i'd be typing this with a whole different attitude but with the same description of myself.

sooooooo YUP. i left the bank with my first credit card coming in the mail. it has a 1000$ limit.
i guess now instead of my bank statement with debit transactions going

mcdonalds (location) ----- $5.20
mcdonalds (location) ----- $5.20
mcdonalds (location) ----- $5.20
krispy kreme (location) ----- $10.00
mcdonalds (location) ----- $5.20
mcdonalds (location) ----- $5.20
mcdonalds (location) ----- $5.20

it'll be on my credit card now. (lol)
the worker also said stuff about how filing fraudulent charge disputes with credit is much faster opposed to banks because it could take months for investigations and retracking of where the money went.
she also knew my boss (lol), how embarassing. she was like oh~oh you're from ____. you must know ____ then. i haven't seen him in awhile. and i was just like, o rly? i'll tell him you said hi, lol. and texted him while i sat in the cubicle.
that was probably the most random thing to ever happen to me because whenever i go to the bank it's just like in one second and out the next. today it was like...OOP! went to the bank today and walked out approved for a credit card the minute i'm out. there was also this one time where i was at the bank and a blackout occured when i was doing a deposit, so i was forced to go to another branch. that was another unusual trip.

i'm back at work again, but i'm back to being a teacher's assistant because i'm not sure of my availability yet. so far i'm basically just helping out the front desk and walking around making sure kids are behaving. i made a kid cry today. no regrets. lol.

working my way backwards...

on monday, i woke up trying to find my phone so i wouldn't smash it with my body and noticed my LED blinking so i checked why. i thought it was going to be one of these because the weather has been crazy yanno? earthquakes, hurricanes, tornados, heat waves.

but to my surprise, it was lisa! asking if i wanted to hang. she's such a good friend to me. truly a blessing T^T...i wish i had more friends like her. out of all the people i know, she's probably the only person i'd stand up for and get into a fist fight for if anything were to happen to her. lol i might have said this already or i told someone this but anyway, even with her boyfriend, work, and other friends, she always manages to find time to hang and introduce me to new places to eat and go. she drives me probably more than half the time too! and i offer to drive whenever possible + we take public transport (mainly metrorail) occasionally anyway so we aren't like car fiends.

ahhh...i really need more friends like her. T---T... why are good people so hard to come by?

so much better than getting texts like this...knowing who drank themselves silly and who puked. it makes me sad that i'm missing all the action (even though clubbing is not my thing) but also glad at the same time that i'm not there watching it haha...

anyhoo~ i told lisa i've never been to round 1 yet and even my douchebag little brother has gone there with his friends already so she's like "wanna go then? we can eat around the area too". i told her that she could yelp a place to eat and i kind of layed in my bed trying to sleep again until she replied with a place and time. lol

finally got out of bed. got ready/ try not to take like 20 minutes past planned time + lisa had other plans at night anyway but it turned that her friend couldn't make it anymore so we had the whole day to hang. i drove us to class 302 (三年2班) in rowland heights because she really likes that place (especially for their shaved ice) so we went because she said they have food too and not only shaved ice. i wasn't expecting a good food selection since it was sort of known for shaved ice but it wasn't bad! we went when there wasn't much people (around 2pm) and then a lot more people started showing up. (weirdness~) we both got rice lunch boxes but i was really tempted to get their taiwanese styled jjajangmyun. when i mentioned to lisa if the dish i pointed to was jjajangmyun, lisa was like "i know a place with really good jjajangmyun. it's around here too, but oh well...next time" and i was like "yeah~". the only jjajangmyun i ever had was packaged ramen ones (jjapaghetti) and it was not even good *gag*.

the following are from lisa's DSLR because i didn't bring mine. the theme of the little restaurant was basically a really old school classroom from like rural china (or taiwan because the place is taiwanese). it was sooo cuute!

large sized iced milk teas. yummmmm.

my old school rice lunch box with marinated salmon (or something along the lines of that)

lisa's shredded chicken thing with a lid on hers...unlike mine.

mango and strawberry shaved ice.

when i got home later that night and looked at my check in on facebook, i saw another one of my FB friends went previously and she uploaded pictures from there too. she got the mango mochi shaved ice. OMGGG IT LOOKED FUCKIN' ORGASMIC. I MUST TRY THAT NEXT TIME. O_________O.

i always imagined shaved ice to be more like a snow cone type dessert but the texture was JUST like ice cream, or maybe gelato because ice cream has a lot more air in it.

it took us awhile to finish because i didn't want to waste the shaved ice and the lunch box made me soooo full. but in the end, we finished...woo!

afterwards, we google nav'd directions to the puente hills mall because lisa was unsure how to get there locally from class 302. i told her to drive my car there but noooo, so i ended up driving like a BIG ASS "U" formation to get there (or the long way). my phone was dying so fast too because of GPS and picture taking. i left my house at 1'ish pm with 77% battery left on my phone and it completely died by like 7pm

got to the mall and went to round one. it's literally like an asian dave and busters. it's like the same format with the addition of bowling, karaoke, and arcade games. i know the dave and buster's here has um...pump it up? the korean DDR but i don't know if it gives out tickets like the rest of the machines do at dave and busters. since i paid for the food because i failed to go to a bank of america for lisa (lol). she paid me back by buying us a one hour unlimited game card and did like a 10$ refill later. i don't think it's that worth it though because we're only a pair and if you really play one game and it takes like half an hour to finish by continuously adding credits while playing, you don't really get much out of it. we played this shooting game and it's really tiring LOL. we finished the whole thing and i ended up playing marvel vs. capcom 2 for awhile. lisa played with me but she doesn't really know how to play and added like 3 credits with the card and i just told her to find something else to play and i'll find her later. i used up her credits by battling myself and choosing different characters so i can see how each special attack looked. i ended up with like the shittiest team after the credits were used and the CPU eventually beat me...huhu...and then lisa came back saying that the hour was up for the unlimited games. it'd probably be more worth it by sharing a card with a group of five and splitting up to play different games. one person swipes at one game and it takes one minute before you can swipe again so the person would find another game to play at another machine and pass it on. you basically have 60 swipes.

here's a very unattractive candid picture of me playing...i look like one of those giant gorrillas on a tiny bicycle. that is how i feel about the picture lol. my ass, stomach, and arms look huge. my flat face and non existent jaw is sooooooo sexy too. atleast i know i don't slouch....lol

the rest of the time spent at round 1 was basically taking purikura. the machines there are cheaper than our local ones (i think). it's 24 credits for one and 10$ on your game card = 44 credits, so... 10/44= 0.22$/ per credit x 24 credits (for the machine we used) = 5.45$/ per purikura opposed to 6$~9$ depending on the machine, that is if i did the math correctly.

so yah~ here are some of our pictures.

we both are, like, fucking pro at decorating because we've taken so many purikura pictures since we were in, like, seventh grade. AHAHA. i've known lisa since we were freshmans in highschool when she was your average faced, super short, squat, fat chinese girl and she's known me since i was your really skinny, hairy with ugly bushy eyebrows, tackily dressed, socially awkward, average chinese boy with shitty horrible acne.

since then, we've both been through a lot and she's gotten so much skinnier and has become so muchhhh more pretty and cute. i, on the other hand, gained a good amount of weight and blossomed like she has (besides that time where i overplucked my brows and went all nihonjin to look like i didn't fuck up big time). i actually have old purikura pictures to prove that but i won't scan them to show LOL. we both dress so much better now too because we both make our own money and matured so much since.

oh the strides we've made~

after taking purikura and wasting the last of my credits on stupid claw machines, we walked around the mall for a bit. i found some shorts in my size at forever21 i liked but the guys dressing room was closed off so i ended up not buying them because i'm scared if i didn't like the fit that i wouldn't be able to return. lisa was like "they might just give you store credit" if i bought them but returned them to a closer f21 to home, but then it hit me that it was a clearance item so it'd probably be final sale...meh! the cotton on there was bigger but the clearance section was equally disappointing...can't wait for another clearance from that store AHHH. i hope there'll be some good stuff then.

we found our way back to my car and i was like "YAYYY KRISPY KREME TIME!!" because that's only like MY MOST FAVORITE DONUT PLACE EVER! AND SINCE THAT'S LIKE THE CLOSEST ONE I KNOW (LIKE 15 MILES AWAY FROM HOME), I HAVE TO BRING SOME HOME ♥. i wasn't as happy with my box as i have previously...mainly because my asshole brother ate a bunch (which was expected). really annoys me how i always share with my family and whenever he goes out he never gets anything to share with us/me. such a dick. ESPECIALLY WHEN I LEAVE DRINKS IN THE FRIDGE AND HE TAKES OBVIOUS SIPS FROM MY STRAW. my mom's always like "oh one day he'll learn to do the same"....ahah...no....my mom said she had like 1.5 donuts...i had like 4 maybe, so he ate like 5 or 6? what the fuck yanno? especially when i didn't even get the have an original glazed one -___- fucking aye. next time i'll buy a dozen original glaze and then a dozen assorted...

continuing on ~~~

on wednesday of last week, i went to green zone and dave and busters with my "twin sister" who i also called nuna, but we're practically like boy/girl versions of each other so we basically think of each other as twins now lol. she's the older twin though by like 7 months, so she's half a year older than me.

she had a date originally but something happened and she asked me if i still wanted to go to dave and busters. i said sure since i wasn't doing anything anyway i then asked if she wanted dinner and blah blah~ and we ended up going to green zone because she said she's been wanting to either go there or cafe xpress again. the weird thing about that night was that at about 9pm the whole restaurant was like dead empty besides us. a girl came in later but she ordered to go so it was just us and her lol. i was like "no way does this place close at 9pm".

asian porkchop with white rice

my sister got the vegetarian curry and requested an egg in it. that place is SOOOOO nice to their customers so they fulfilled her requests. she wanted it soft boiled too so the owner wasn't sure how she wanted it and she had to show him a picture with her phone of what a soft boiled egg was like. it wasn't exactly like a softboiled egg but it was close enough...it was like sunny side up with the yolk still in liquid form with a thin layer of egg whites blanketed over it.

i totally love that restaurant. i don't go there very often but i'm always super satisfied when i go. i love the staff, the food, everything.

so yah~ afterwards, we proceeded to my car and drove us to dave and busters. my sis asked a friend of ours if he wanted to come and he said he was down but later said like he didn't want to go anymore because it was like almost 10:30pm? lol... he's only like 25...c'mon~ so yeah we went without picking him up. about maybe an hour into our game playing he surprisingly showed up and scared the shit out of her HAHAHA. i was like o___O why is this guy standing really close to "e" and it turned out to be "k" hahaha and she totally fell off her chair.

i had to use my gamecard that night because my friend lost hers so we're sharing it now since we put our tickets in it. "k" showed us this awesome game where you can win a lot of tickets and we totally scored a shitload that night. we got about 5800 pts for prizes. that could buy like 5 as seen on tv slap choppers HAHA.

there was atleast a thousand tickets by the end of the night. i wanted a domo so i got one that night. my twin sister wanted a pink domo but they didn't have any that day so she ended up not getting anything.

that picture also reminded me that we met up so i could get my glycolic acid that arrived at her house. i did give myself a chemical peel last week but it wasn't as bad as people made it seem. either i put too thin of a layer on my face or the pad i used to spread it on my face absorbed most of it o_O...i think it helped light up some scars though because i remember this one area on my forehead was much darker last week. i'm going to do it again tonight...but with a q-tip instead.

on an ending note, my boss at work said he was watching a slideshow from last years summer camp and said that last year i looked much skinnier than i do now. i replied "i know. i think i'm fat. i'm trying to lose it now. i'm not taking body building amounts of protein anymore and see if i shrink a little" lol T_____T ...i also thought it was weird when one of the newer employees was watching that same video and said who's that and my other boss said "oh that's peter! with a different hairstyle....and less muscles"...T___T FUUU! lol. i'm going to fit into my destroyed jeans for jury duty man! I SHALL!!

my twin sis and two other friends rented a house in san diego for labor day weekend. we better be playing in the beach. the only thing i know that's going down for sure is this "fashion whore" party. i said i'd only go if ALL OF US go with the grudge theme and all look like broken down whores, but i don't know...

hmph~! so yeah...san diego here i come!

i'm focused but i'm losing control.

2011-08-23T20:10:00.000-07:00

bloggerrr i've missed thee.

i'm kind of sad that hommemodel.blogspot.com is going to be invite only starting in september. i don't really love that blog enough to ask for an invite nor am i the type to really ask a person in general. i'm always the one finding an alternative or figuring out things on my own.

i'm trying to recap what's happened since vegas. well i ummm didn't go my friend's little birthday gathering but whatever...it was sort of her fault for not telling me when i should've left my house. i'm also a little darker because i washed my car and my mom's car in my swim shorts for 1.5 hours. i've been wanting a darker glow because of my acne scars on my forehead and right side of my face...T-T... my other coworker had his 23rd birthday too and i went to celebrate it with him and my older peers by potluck. i just brought a 6 pack of "spiked cola" because i love soda and they like alcohol, so it's like the best of both smashed together? lol. i liked it and so did my other friend but then some other people said it tasted like captain morgan...lol. it tasted like those japanese cola flavored type candies but in actual cola form...to me anyway.

i had some rather gross and disappointing beer and yeah...i think "s" knows that i'd rather take shots than drink beer now lol. "s" also thinks i should take dragon boating with him as a hobby because of my "buff" body... - _ - ~ ...hope he forgets about me mentioning that i would "try" it but i probably wouldn't take it up as a regular basis thing. but anyway, the birthday boy went down...like pretty fast...i thought it was kind of odd that he couldn't control himself or knew his limit. he was like SUPER happy after like his second shot of vodka and he even asked me if i was going to take any. i said that i'd be driving one of the girls home the first time he asked but then he asked again later and i was like "sure~ one for you" and yeah...he took like maybe 6 or 7 full'ish shots and a bottle of that beer. i guess that's a lot but if i was full and i took that much i think i'd just be buzzin' by then...and probably pissing a lot because alcohol makes me go pee like mad.

i had like half or a quarter of THAT crappy beer pictured above, two shots of grey goose vodka, and some good wine that pretty much tasted like grape soda and i was totally fine. he, on the otherhand, was yackin' that shit out from like 9-11pm before he crashed on the couch, lol.

my closest peer was sort of in a drinking competition with him too and she was like really hysterical and loud after like the 3rd or 4th shot but she wasn't on the verge of barfing. she was totally normal by the time i took her home though (around 1:30am) which was good for me. i REALLY did not want to like...drag her body into her house haha. i literally would have just left her body on the driveway and drove home LOL...or maybe i would just take her to my house and leave her on the living room couch and my parents or brother would be like "who the hell is this" if they found her on the couch.

continuing on with my adventures with my "alcoholic" peers...

i went to a bar in little tokyo on a saturday. birthday boy's belated birthday potluck was on the thursday of that week but he didn't come with us. it was kind of boring at the bar anyway because we went to support a friend who's in this nisei pageant thing and we were suppose to meet up with her there but she didn't even show up until past midnight. we were at the bar from 9 to midnight. we basically just snacked, took shots, and drank beer.

coke and some shot i don't know the name of.

very yummy lemon drop shot. it literally was like shooting lemonade down haha. i love that little sugary part you're suppose to put your lips on too

not pictured was a shot of another brown liquor called con-yak? konjak? *blegh~ and some big beers...shock tops and uhhh sapporo? kirin? one of those japanese city named beers? i don't know...i don't like alcohol...-___-...but yeah...beer sucks...the most. i'd rather take shots of vodka or soju.

after leaving that bar in little tokyo...i was errr forced to be the designated driver because i looked most sober and they didn't want the girls to drive. i didn't hate it or anything because i knew how to get home anyway but yeah...the only annoying thing about going home from downtown via freeway is the short distance i have to switch to the freeway i need to get on and that freeway is fairly busy because it's like one freeway that splits into 2 or 3 seperate routes. i made it back though. we stopped by ralphs to redbox a movie. they wanted to watch a scary movie. i'm pussy shit. i don't even know why i stayed over to watch.

who'd be more sober anyway? me (who's 5'6.5 and 165~170lb) or "s" (who's 5'11 and 175lb)? lol but i'm 22 and "s" is 34, if that matters.

the gang.

we watched insiduous (sp?) which is like any other horror movie with a kid that interacts with other spiritual beings. it wasn't horrifyingly scary but i was still paranoid that night, ESPECIALLY in the shower where i was scared to close my eyes for too long, lol. in that picture above...i hit my head under the ummm high waist stool table thing...it was so retarded of me...i don't know how the hell that happened...lol...so i moved to the other side and watched the television over there...

i wore this that day...and hid behind my denim jacket during the movie *shifty eyes*

hair was a mess after the movie...and the paranoia of a cop pulling me over @ 3am

i got that denim jacket from pacsun for like 33$? scoop neck tee from cottonon for 5$~7$? belt was also from cottonon @ like 6$ something. jeans were from f21 and it's those 3 button type crotches and not the zipper + button type. the most bottom button fuckin' broke off that night *cry* lol i'll probably still wear the jeans but yeah...i can see what they mean about f21 clothes not lasting...i wonder if those jeans were even a year old yet but whatever, it was only like 20$ something. bracelets from h&m one was like 3$something and other was a pack of 3 for like 5.99$...yeahhh i never list the prices of my crap because i'm like horrible at this HAHA. it's not like anyone even cares. if anyone cares enough, the person would ask me anyway.

and then a couple days ago, i was so bored that i decided to retheme my phone. i've uninstalled golauncher since because i have to do multiple taps on an app to open sometimes and it was totally bugging the shit out of me. i've also installed a version of skype which was modified to work with my phone's front cam but i don't even have a skype account so i basically just installed it if i ever wanted to skype...which will be, like, never.

here's all my apps and such.

yeaaah...wish they had more iphone/itouch games on android. if i had the gingerbread update...my top bar would be black too...but mehhh not yet...if ever.

my friend on friday asked me if i wanted to go to D23. D23 is a Disney Expo in the Anaheim Convention Center which is right by Disneyland and Disney California Adventure. I saw a glimpse of the backside of Paradise Pier as we approached the convention center. I was in awe~~~ *glissening eyes*. my friend said so far it was her, this guy named robert (who i've met before), and suppose to be belated birthday boy when she asked me but he flaked and so i like sent a text to my closest friends to see if they had no plans and wanted to come with me but none of them could go (not surprised). my closest friend out of the bunch texted me something along the lines of "um...i'm at the airport waiting to go to korea" and i'm like "oh HAHA...i thought you were leaving tomorrow"...but yeah...she's in Busan now...going to be a long year without her. I won't be able to text her when i'm in school and work...*cry* huhu...*tears*...

but errr yeah...i had an extra ticket but D23 was nice...there was a lot of art for sale but they were expensive as hell. there wasn't much disney freebies or we didn't walk around enough to see. we actually went kind of late because my friend and robert were out for breakfast and i met up with them at like 1:30pm. we got there maybe around 2'ish. we walked around until like 5 and then got in line for the first public showing of "The Lion King" in 3D. When the movie was over...all the exhibits were closed and we headed home for dinner because we didn't really know what to eat around Anaheim...that, and Robert is vegan so we had to like...find some place that served something for him lol.

the first exhibit we headed to was some volunt'ear thing centered around planting plants and gardening. we had the option of setting up a pot to grow a plant or paint and we opted to paint. basically we are giving a little blank canvas and we're free to paint whatever we wanted but obviously everyone painted something disney related or something to do with earth so i pretty much bandwagoned that idea.

robert's is the one next to mine...the one that's really dark with the weird smiley

my friend's one isn't pictured but hers was like a pink mickey silhouette basically lol

this is mine. originally i was trying to draw mickey's head too...but i'm horrible at drawing so it ended up being like a mouse-bear...and then i drew a bunny with some hills and a flower with a sun rising. i wanted to put my name, so i did, and then placed hearts in all the empty spots LOL. i also put a silver cloud...my friend said it was super cute...lol

the wooden block things become like these boxes that kind of look like those farmed bee hives. i should've taken a picture of some finished ones but i was kind of paranoid with picture taking because outside stated you aren't suppose to but everyone was taking pictures inside so i just used my phone for awhile before taking out my DSLR occasionally.

other than that...there was just a lot of stuff on display and stuff for sale.

so yeah...other than the wandering around...we got in line for "The Lion King" and i totally wasn't expecting anything amazing or anything since it was just the same movie from like over a decade ago but remastered with 3D, but i admit that i was a baby and still got teary eyed. i think its better watching it again now anyway because as a kid i didn't really get the jokes in the movie but now i do. i also got the lesson of the movie more than i did previously because as a kid, all i'd like to know is what happened and nothing else.

that nostalgic feeling was like...ughhh goosebump worthy. it was kind of cool too after watching tv for so long that you can identify the voices. for example, as a kid, i would have never knew that one of the hyena's voices was whoopi goldberg and the voice of nala was one of the girls from the cartoon "The Proud Family". there was also so many different accents going on in that movie that it was kind of funny haha. i would've never noticed that as a kid.

the movie left me with the drive to continue to be better, know myself and never forget who i am and where i came from, don't run away from my problems/the past...etc etc...

everyone who went to watch the 3D screening got those lion manes? yeahhhh i look stupid wearing mine.

awesome grainy front cam pictures with our 3D glasses.

SO yuuupp~~ i'm beginning to really think that a camera really adds 10lbs now because my friend looked really nice and skinny at D23 but the pictures proved otherwise...lol same applies to me...lol

me with this cute ariel thing

this is basically the stuff i got that day. my friend gave me a pack of her nexcare acne tape for me to use. i'm not really sure if they're working but it does seem to be absorbing the secretions from the pimple areas...so it'd keep my pimples/former pimples flat.

we had cafe xpress for dinner. i was going to get some pasta but my friend said they had a lot of types of asian food for a hong kong styled restaurant and i was like "whattt?" and she showed me the part of the menu i missed. i basically missed all the bentos, thai, and korean type foods and i was like "woooah they have bibimbap", so i got that instead because i've never had bibimbap before lol.

the hot ceramic? clay? iron? bowl was soooooo big. it was kind of hard to eat off of because the bowl kept the rice mix pretty hot @_@ but i had a plate and placed bits there to eat lol.

dinner was delish though....mmmm only shitty thing that's come by is a fucking JURY DUTTY SUMMON in the mail T__________T. fuckin' aye. i registered for it the night before D23...now i have that to look forward to...next month...week of 9/19...i start school the thursday of that week too...fuck man...i hope that i don't need to go...or...i have to go on monday but i get dismissed between monday and wednesday...AHHHHH hope for the best...-___-....i'll be going to a new school too...and i might possibly have to miss the first week or two...lame shit. i'll also miss serveral days of work -___- sigh balls*

my first jury summon was in 2009 and i used xanga to blog about it. i've moved to blogger since. "s", who's 34, got his first summon recently. WTF MAN!!! lol i've gotten two now!

on the bright side, i got my ASOS package that i've been longing for. i bought these...

i bought gladiators and two layered tanks. i actually think they sent me the wrong sized gladiators but they fit fine so i'm happy. i'm pretty sure i asked for a size 10 and not 9...

cheapest gladiators i've run into...19~20$...could've been cheaper if i ordered them now because of the 20% off discount going on right now -____-. just my luck

7GBP each...which is about 11$ each

recently, i ordered some jeans from pacsun since my khaki jeans are like semi broken.

skinny twill jeans in gray and black coated skinny jeans...bogo free @ 49.99 + 15% off + free shipping = 22$'ish each after tax and all. the black jeans only had 31x 32 online though...so i hope the inseam is shorter than usual. if not, i'll just ask my mommy to help me shorten them...hmph T^T

too bad i don't look as cool as the model does in my tanks. i've been beginning to dislike how i look in pictures, so i've decided to cut my protein intake and try to get leaner/shrink a little.

i don't really like how inflated i look and i swear my legs are getting chunkier or something. i mean...yeah...i'm all for looking proportional and everything, but i want leaner + less puffy arms and chest, and a nicer torso. i'm basically giving into what my mom is saying about me "getting wider" ughhhh parents and my skewed self perception...not sure about my goal weight now...but weight isn't really important anyway...

sooo i'm cutting my protein shake intake in half from 3 times a week @ like 60g of protein? to 3 times a week @ around 30g so i'd just have enough to not feel like crap the next day. i'll continue eating low carb'ish and get more cardio in...ughhh so much work...lol...must not think too much about it.

strangely...

my friend and i saw a buddy of ours "b" @ cafe xpress hahaha and i was like..."hey isn't that 'b' over there?" and she's like "yeah~~i wonder where 't' (his girlfriend) is". i then replied "i didn't know he was so buff..." and she said "yeah...he goes to the gym a lot". that fucker was like totally like interrogating me about how much i've working out and what i've been eating and shit and he's beastly himself -___- this was like maybe a month or two before. he was holding his phone and his arm was like a frackin' turkey leg but magnified like, iono, 10 times?

this will remain my goal body...

i'm not ballsy enough to photograph myself in my undies sooo...i'll do it in my swim shorts lol

mmmmm~~ my muffin top so sexy ~___~ as well as my fatty droopy bewbs, grab-able love handles, and pudgey lower abs.

so yep...time to tighten up. i've got this far...i got to go the whole nine yards.

oh haha...i forgot to mention that my friend bought me glycolic acid from amazon which is what they use when you go to a skin clinic for a facial peel, sooooo i won't be surprised when my face turns into fried chicken for awhile AHAH.... i can't wait to give myself some facial peels though...someone come do it with me and hold my hand while it burns our faces LOL jk.

that's all, ciao.

I won’t return to thee…

2011-08-10T05:08:00.000-07:00

hellooo my blogger. i'm bored and i don't want to get my cardio in yet so i'm going to type what i can and then get to heart rate pumping.

i dyed my hair "ash blonde" on wednesday night of last week? but yeah...i don't really like it because it came out really uneven. i'm all for japanese brand hairdye now. my hair is relatively nice but i don't know...i'm not really satisfied. i wanted a really rich brown color but it looks really red to me. my coworker said it looks really natural so...i guess that's a compliment...my other coworker was like "did you dye your hair? now we match! *pulls ponytail foward*" lol...cutes.

i'll show pictures later, i guess. i actually just gave myself a trim and my hair totally looks sort of like acorn hair now...i don't want to cut it any further but...yeah...i'll just let it grow again...lol
my weekend was pretty good so i'm actually bothering to type an entry before i forget about it until several weeks after

my friend asked me on thursday night if i didn't have work on friday and luckily i didn't so she asked if i wanted to hangout to i said sure! when i was at work and checked tumblr she said she was going to disneyland with her boyfriend though so i thought that was kind of weird but i asked her the next day and she said he boyfriend had some work related stuff and had to cancel their plans. my hangout was also with my other friend named steph and they've been wanting to karaoke as a trio for the longest time (probably like over a year) so we got around doing that. i've also read an entry on eater via curbed about this place called "starry kitchen" in downtown and the story of the restaurant seemed really cool so i've been wanting to try it since reading. the comments in the article by the owner totally had me (LOL) and i got to meet him on friday! he was SO cool. i totally need to go back.

this meant that my hangout on friday consisted of hanging out in downtown so to conveniently trek downtown, you take metrorail! steph lives closest to a metrorail station so we picked her up last. i'm such a bad friend. i made lisa wait outside my house for like maybe 20 minutes. i opened the door and saw her sitting on my front yard and i'm like DUDE~I TOLD YOU TO COME IN BUT YOU SAID NO. -___- lol.

starry kitchen is located in california plaza so you take the red or purple line train to pershing square and take the exit... towards the exit that doesn't end up exiting to pershing square. if you do end up facing pershing square, just take the escalator back down and enter the subway station again and go through the other exit (unless there's a random cop there to check your ticket). but yeah!, i remember reading that the goats were back at angel knoll's park but i totally forgot about them until we exited to the sight of people staring out at all the goats and taking pictures so i took pictures too!

supposedly having goats eat weeds is more cost effective? or just more eco friendly or something.

after some picture taking, i got my phone out and google mapped the restaurant and it gave me weird walking directions but we ended up to our destination (thank the lawd~). the owner was like "have ya guys been here before??" and stuff and asked us how we found out about them and i at first said yelp, but then he said something about how the restaurant got started and lisa said "oh yeah ~ i read that" and i'm like "OH~ shit. i read about you on curbed." and he's like "really?" and i'm like "yeah~ i don't remember how i found you but i saw a link from curbed to eater and read about you guys" and he's like "YEAH!! with that picture of me with the foot on the table" and i'm like "YEAH!!" hahah.

our foods. my foods.

basically their story was like...it's a husband and wife team and they use to have like little food parties at their apartment and more and more people started coming to try their pan asian cuisine. the parties became like this underground food serving thing and they finally took the initiative to open a place when their friend who had a sushi place in DTLA let them take over because business didn't go so well? (i'm horrible at this. read the article i linked). they have a rotating menu so the stuff they serve is never the same. more reason to check the place out! lisa told me she wanted to try the jab chae (korean glass noodles) and i'm OH YEAH~ because it wasn't on the menu when we went. boo...

so anyway, i had like the taiwanese pork chop? it was paired with a banh mi bread and i had like the viet salad or something. it was delish~ the salad was like really refreshing on that hot day and i've had so much banh mi sandwiches because my mom's been buying it and making me buy them for my dad on days when she doesn't know what else to give him for lunch the next work day, but it was really good too!

here we are nom nom noming~

my hair needs some work...

you can get a feel of how starry kitchen is like from this picture, i guess.

my hair is ugh...sick. it's totally channeling kate gosselin (from jon & kate plus 8). we both have single eyelids but our eyes are totally different looking. isn't that so cool? lol.

i don't even mean to style my hair that way. it ends up looking that way...lol. i usually see it like this...LOL

but ya~~ what can ya' dooo~

after eating and using the facilities, we boarded the subway train back to union station to wait for the light rail train to take us to little tokyo for some karaoke.

so you take pictures while you wait :x~

the train comes more frequent during the day and somewhat faster around the hours of rush hour so it didn't really take that long for it to come. i remember i waited at night once ( like around 10~11pm) and i was freezing my damn legs off.

metrorail gold line.

once you reach the station and walk a couple blocks down alameda, you're there. WEE!

aren't we cute? because my left eyebrow isn't. it looks kinda fucked up lol.

steph and i.

karaoke was pretty fun. i wish steph and lisa knew more korean so we could all sing korean songs together (that or we all be fluent in reading katakana).

so yeah~ after karaoke, we had to head back because steph has some like martial arts thing to attend and lisa has some family dinner thing so we boarded the train back to the station we parked at.

never ending picture of the skyline.

the next morning, i went on a trip to vegas for the weekend because that's what southern california people do...make random trips to vegas.

i went with my nuna and her best friend. it was suppose to be their siblings too but they flaked and i'm kind of glad they did, lol. we left like a hour after originally planned and stopped at an outlet in barstow before continuing the journey through the mountains and desert to vegas. nuna got like...a coach bag and wristlet and her friend got a like teal coach bag. i wanted a coach wallet (the quilted looking one that kind of looks like chanel?) but it was like 100 bucks even with discount...so...i'll pass...lol

one of the crappier outlets

there's two things i don't really like about vegas. first thing is the heat. i know it's hot at home too but the air is SO much more dry than at home. i don't even live near the ocean at home too lol. it'd be like 8pm and you step into a parking garage and it's like...a fan blowing 100 degree dry air into your face. second thing is that it's legal to smoke inside buildings, so it's normal to smell cigarrette smoke inside the all the casinos and restaurants.

M hotel. about 13 miles from "the strip" but oh mah lord~ i had the best buffet evar here. there was a line for entry and it was like...huge...even hotel VIP guests would have to wait a bit.

you can start making out "the strip" in the middle of the picture.

i actually stayed in a hotel that's about 1~2 miles before the strip but that's what you have cars for, to get around. you don't really need to pay for hotel parking because most major ones have self parking spaces. i haven't been there in about 10 years so not really A LOT has changed but there are several new hotels around. i didn't see the fountain bleu? but i saw the city center hotels. they're gorrrgeous. here are pictures from "the strip"

well i thought we'd go to ceasars palace because it's about the center of the strip and look around but nuna and friend ended up just shopping in the forums shops. i've never seen so many really luxurious brands all in one place, lol. i've never been to like melrose ave or beverly hills area of LA so i don't know how luxurious it is there but there was like... Versace, Dolce & Gabanna, Emporio Armani, Zegna, Fendi, etc etc. very Milano/ Italian type stores.

there's also this huge three story H&M that i remembered seeing on curbed.

it's like crazy swanky cool inside. i was like...@_@...nothing really to buy though but yeah...totally awesome sauce.

DJ spinnin' some muzak~

i only got this bracelet. it's from the womens section but whatevers. i rock that shet~

nuna, friend, and i all got em. nuna got a pink one instead though i think.

i think the highlight of my trip was stuffing my face in an awesome local sushi restaurant called sushi mon. i've never tried so many types of sushi in my life @_@

kobe beef sushi?? whatttt? mmmm~

soooooooo goood.

i should've got the lychee sorbet ice cream...that one was sooo gooooood T_T

so yeah~ like i said earlier, i stayed a mile or two upon reaching the actual strip. i was STILL IN vegas, but not the vegas people think of...which is the strip. i was hella tossing because i shared a bed with nuna. i like...bumped into her like five times and i don't think she even knew. her friend was like "you toss a lot. were you even asleep" and i'm like "...half and half..." lol...i slept for like four hours...i pretty much tossed and turned the other three. i swam a bit at the hotel. i also tried to tan and bowled. nuna put her lip tint on me before the sushi dinner and her friend was like "dude...it's the same color as his lips" lol. i always thought my lips were really...colored looking...lol

i love my new swim shorts. i need more reasons to wear them (while they still fit) :D~

here's our hotel. HI!!!!!

i didn't get much of a tan. tanning is fucking hard. the sun is all glaring in your damn face, you're sweating, and it's like 100 degrees outside. even with your eyes closed, it's hard to be relaxed.

my nuna and i aren't really the usual type of people who bring all their slutty clubbing attire and party it up in vegas. this is what we do...instead of clubbing and filling the bathtub with ice and alcohol.

i also camwhored with my GIFkuaishou app when bored. i didn't upload these on tumblr so...weee...treat for my non existent readers.

so yeah~ nuna and i bowled after we checked out and put our crap into her car. i was like "regular names or funny names?" and she replied "funny" so i entered whineyvoice and ran to the restroom LOL. i came back to find my name was camwhor3 which is so not true. i don't even post much pictures of myself -__-.

mehhh not my best...i wanted more strikes! T___T

did i mention i ate a shitload at M hotel's studio B buffet that even the waiter was like "womg" lol and i was like "she's better" *points at nuna* lol...

they had the nicest desserts too and EVEN HAD GELATO FOR DESSERT. I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THE CHANCE TO TRY THE GELATO BECAUSE I WAS SO FULL *CRY*

if you lived in suburban las vegas, you'd probably see something like this out your window.

the hotel i stayed in is the closest to the front of the picture...the orangey looking one.

so yap. that was my week/weekend. it's been like 2 months since i've been trying to work on a hotter body...i think i've stayed the same for the most part...well i think the extra cardio helped give me a little definiton but i barely see anything. damn my horrible eating *mad face*

goal:

my current fat ass self:

ugh...i need help...lol okay not really...

tried to get some cardio in but i didn't have a snackeroo before getting my ass moving and i gave up half way because i totally felt like blacking out if i went any further... :x eep. never again.

nuna says i'm like her kurt? kirk? from glee...not sure if i should feel complimented or insulted because i don't have a voice like his and neither do i dress like him, but i guess something about his character is like me...hmmm.

okay it is 5am. i need some sleep or i'll be a grouchy peter at work.

show your knee socks, drink tequila on the rocks till you makes your body pops to the speaker

2011-08-01T02:40:00.000-07:00

ugh i hate growing up. i shaved my face on, i think, friday? and yeah, i'm plucking my chin hairs already and it's monday (12:13 am). i don't remember my hairs growing as fast a year or two back...heh.

my really bright blue jeans :D

i have no idea what to do for baking class tomorrow. my coworker did sugar cookies last monday so i'm going to ask her if there's any of her stuff left over and see what i need for sugar cookies. i think there's muffin mix in the kitchen at work too...so i could do that too...but anyway, i'm bored and i'm going to type an entry before i sleep for tomorrow.

i watched that japanese movie "norwegian wood" the other day...the ending was totally like "wtf". i just felt lost and felt like i wasted two hours not understanding the whole thing. there was a lot of like sexual stuff in it too...so i wonder if the book like...described that in very great detail or something...lol.

besides getting my new phone and going to the OC fair, i haven't done much.

my new phone is SO much better than my old phone. oh my god. even if it is a rebranded huawei phone. my god. LOL.

my old phone had like...an 800mhz processor, no graphics processor, maybe 256mb ram? and it was just laggy as fuck with a 3.2mp cam. i now have a 1ghz snapdragon processor, 4.1" screen, some adreno GPU, 512mb RAM, 2gb internal storage, 5mp rear camera with LED flash, front VGA cam. i don't know what else but oh my god! the screen is so much more responsive, i can actually play fruit ninja (though i miss it being on my former phone because everything moved so much slower LOLL). i'm using a recent picture of zhao lei as my wallpaper because i'm too lazy to look through my whole tumblr archive for the "perfect" wallpaper picture. i'm kind of tired of kids at work asking me if my phone's wallpaper is myself...-___- so i want, like, a perfect doraemon wallpaper.

the only thing i kind of dislike is the crappy front facing cam but whatevers. i can deal with it for 2 years lol. and in two years, there'll be phones with like a duo or quad core processors clocking in at 2ghz, l2mp+ rear cameras, HD quality front facing cam, and 2-4gb of ram with 80gb of internal memory minimum...lol.

peek at some of the apps i use/have.

i was figuring out how to screenie last night even though i knew how to previously...i was like updating my android SDK and whatever the fucks and i don't know why the ddms thing wouldn't detect my phone. luckily, i read on a forum that the "screenshot" app in the market works with my phone even though it says it only supports rooted phones so HOORAH. applanet is still down though...i miss it dearly....i want new apps T___T...especially since my phone actually has MEMORY for it.

continuing on....

i went to the orange county fair on saturday morning because my friend asked and it's 2$ admission if you buy your ticket by 11am so why not. i did not have to drive myself there anyway so yay. i only slept for like 4 hours before driving to my friend's house but it was a fun day. we left around 3 because my friend had to attend this concert with all those popular youtube singers (joseph vincent, jason chen...don't know who else) @ 6 and she gotta get there by 5 to get seated so i was at the fair for like 5 hours in the sun. i have some slight sunburns but it's not bad...hoping i don't peel. lol. i have like these red slashes around my tank "straps" area because i crappily put on sunscreen in the car because i would rather TRY to get some sleep on the car ride there...lol -__-


"take a picture of my banana!"

alcohol and it's not even noon yet...(this wasn't even good. it was really strong with NO flavor whatsoever AND it was like 8 dollars O_o)

"uhhh i'm not gonna buy a drink but i'm just gonna get a band anyway (to show that i'm 21+ and not, like, 17)."

a giant turkey leg for breakfast. chyeeeah.

saw this giant stuffed bear fly around in the morning and totally caught an emo moment. that should be me : (

carnival games...such a rip...along with the carnival rides.

i only went on one ride but i'll show pictures of that later. guess what i won there though.
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THIS HUGE ASS MINION!!! OMGGGG ♥ LOLLLL.
i saw little kids with little ones all day, and i really wanted one. i tried one more game after losing twice earlier AND ENDED UP FUCKIN' WINNING!! it was amazing LOL.

and to show you how big it is...

i look fat and fugly as hell but yeah HAHA. my smiling picture is uglier and even fatter looking.

my arms can barely hug it. ♥ sadly, he isn't very soft though. before i saw the huge minions @ the squirt water into a hole carnival game stand, i really wanted a big badtz maru from the same game but at another stand.

i saw some girls on my FB go too...here are their puny ass minions! AHAHA suckers...jk...but those are the little ones i saw. so cute!!

so ya...i rode on this rollercoaster that i've ridden on when i was like a tween? i rode it @ the LA county fair when i was still friends with a particular person and i know we stopped being friends in like 7th or 8th grade so i was like maybe 11 or 12...can't remember but yeah i'm, like, 22 going on 23 now and i was squashed with my friend's friend because they all went on the ride before us and the guy wanted to just give my friend another ride (with me) but i don't think the operator understood and we just got on together while she held my bag and took pictures. i look totally fug in all of them but atleast i liked how my body looked LOL...pictures do me no justice -___-.

i am not fat...as you can see...lol...but yeah...my friend's friend and i barely fit...i could've totally elbow'd his face.

and once in a blue moon, i show my face.

i don't look 22, i know.

the end.

kthx4readingbai.

...but lately i just don't know.

2011-07-24T22:51:00.000-07:00

i'm incredibly bored right now. my right ear is aching along with the boredom but it is better than it was a couple hours ago. this cold is lasting longer than what i was expecting....huhu....

soooo anyway, i just felt like updating even though i have no recollection of stuff that has happened the past 12'ish days. i'm just currently thinking about making this hollisterco.com purchase which is probably going to be likely but i'm waiting for my friend to get online so we can order together and save on shipping costs. she said she wanted three dresses that she didn't see at the store sooo yeah.

i went clubbing for the first time last thursday. clubbing is overrated.

well it was an art exhibit which later opened for clubbing sooo we sort of got our money's worth. i went with a bunch of coworkers and former coworkers to support a special former coworker of ours who quit her job to pursue a fashion career. she exhibited her earth friendly looks which was like corsets and bra tops embellished in soda can tops, plastic bag skirts, that kind of stuff. i took pictures but most of them ended up very motion blurry because it was dark and my camera is very mediocre. but you got to work with what ya' got, sooo here was the scene that night.

my sexy gurlfranzzz/big sisters.

doubt there's anything "green" in this picture but...yeah. lol.

my favorite look (and pretty cool picture captured).

the clubbing part was interesting. i went with three other male coworkers and watching them dance up on my former coworkers was very....interesting. one was like "are you not the clubbing type too?" and i'm like "i guess so~" but yeah once i like joined the "party" he totally loosened up and went buckwild. lol.

i know that's like normal but it's funny because i totally remember everything AND i drank a couple of drinks on an empty stomach. my friend was such weaksauce. she said she barely remembers anything. i'm just like "......srsly?". i was having this whole text conversation with my friend in the van on the ride home that night too. i was like "my coworkers are such fobs. they're totally chatting in cantonese right now and it's like i'm not around. they were talking about pretty intimate stuff too lol. oh~ my innocence~"

which is funny (in regards to my innocence) because i was chatting with a coworker who didn't go like the day before the show...and she was like "sooo how's your relationship life" and i'm just like "crap." and..."pretty much non existent"...i pretty much explained myself like i did in my last entry and she was like "oh...well when you meet someone you really like...you'll feel it and definitely know" and i was like "gee~ thanks...". guys have to work so much harder....WHYYYYYYY LOL. whatever. i'm selfish. i'd rather not put the effort and just please myself. anyone wanna be my friend with benefits? lol jk.

the dancing part was pretty....interesting...it's mostly like dubstep type crap with no singing. i saw this skinny black chick shuffling in heels. that was pretty kick ass. lol. on the dance floor i pretty much just jumped up and down...and blocked the nerdy friends from trying to get out. towards the end of the night though...my baller boss who got us a seating area and drinks and the other guys were totally playing like games to give the girls lapdances. i was like "jeeeez". i mean...yeah i can hella dance like a slut but jeeez~

oh i also saw go go dancers for the first time that night. it was interesting...LOL.

what else...

a week or so before that. i had dinner with a soompier. it was totally weird but i liked it. he was nice : ). although he asked me to eat with him, i think he felt more awkward than i did. i asked him if he wanted to go with my friend and i to vegas to and he totally flaked and said i'd rape him if he went anyway. bitch! i'm so inexperienced and i'm a good boy. do i look like i can be aggressive and stuff? (maybe i can be...).

WHO wouldn't want to get raped by me anyway?? i'm totally bangin'

just kidding...

talking ~~very suggestively~~ to me like your the shit and that i want you via text message only makes me bring it, bitch! lol.

other than that...i've just bought some crap for myself.

like these mirrors...and the one i'm pictured in fucking fell...TWICE. i haven't bought more mounting tape since. lol.

going to dye my hair before vegas. sooo that'll be like friday of next week? hopefully this will get me the shade of brown i want...lol. this one little girl student of mine better freak the fuck out because she kept saying how i looked better with brown hair. i'm going to make sure i get a nice tan in vegas too...i'm so pasty white...

bought this last night...could've gone to bestbuy today and gotten it instead...but now i'll have to wait for it in the mail...it'll be a present to open when i come home from work this week... hopefully. can't wait to get all my pirated apps on it and stuff. WEEEE! i've only had my current phone for like 9 months...but oh my goddd. i hate it. hopefully this will be worlds better.

people on howardforums are being very whiney about this phone though...so i hope i don't regret anything. video reviews of it have been very pleased though....so it's hard to know...hmph!

i'll probably order these from hollisterco.com later.

i really want new swim shorts...i wanted them in navy blue but there's none in my size...i'm not sure if i can squeeze into a S one LOL...so have to settle for red.

and that will be the end of my expidentures.

random pictures.

kthx for reading, bai.

you make me feel so...la la la lala

2011-07-12T22:37:00.000-07:00

hello blog! been a while. i don't know where to start so i guess i'll go backwards starting from today.

this weekend i went out everyday with the same people. it was odd (to me), but i kind of liked it at the same time. starting on friday, i went out to this sushi place in old town because my friend pretty much begged me to go even though i bought food before coming home from work so i went. we met my other friend there who brought her friend. my other friend always seems to have OTHER friends who like to tag along with her to dinner. that's also kind of odd to me too because iono...i never really bring my friends to meet my other friends, but anyway. it was just a dinner. i bought three rolls of sushi because my friend said she got three rolls and was like "what the hey~", but when they arrived i was like "woah...i hope i can finish this..."

all those sushi rolls pictured were mine @_@. amazingly finished though.

i drank (what i consider to be) a lot that night...ugh...so against what i strive to be...lol. i had like 2 shots of hot sake, 1.5+ huge glass fulls of beer, and some of my friend's cocktail. i was ok...lol

i drove to d&b afterwards but my friend's phone died and my other friend didn't pick up so i just left. i wasn't up for playing arcade games anyway.

the next day my mom kind of left the house after i woke up to give something to my aunt so i was mostly alone. my friend asked me if i was up to go eat with her and i didn't really care if i did or didn't so i just did since we were gonna meet up with the same friend from yesterday at d&b afterwards. i basically was just in an arcade for like 2 or so hours fucking around. i guess it's fun to look around for hot asians, if you're into that. but during my dinner, which i didn't even get to take a picture of because my friend randomly started telling me her problem, i learned that her boyfriend and her both are feeling that they should be able to see other people and if that doesn't work out, then they could remain boyfriend and girlfriend.

sooo...i guess their relationship has become stale after 5 years.
if you had a significant other and been together for 5 years, would you agree like she has? to be able to date again (with permission)? or just completely break up and not be mutually exclusive or exclusive to anyone? or be like "no, what the hell, no. work something out" (lol)? or is there some other option i didn't think of?

i was so the wrong person to ask these type of questions so during our dinnner at this thai place. i was just like uhhh...uhhhh...uhhhhhhh.

i mean like...yeah i'm not very experienced in that field eheh.
if your relationship goes sour, then just end it. i guess you can work things out but it probably wasn't meant to be.

it's funny...like i have this other coworker too...she was like "oh we just celebrated our 5 year anniversary" and my other coworker was like "wow~that's a long time. usually after the third year people end up not working out" something like that and she replies like "yeah~ we work hard to keep the relationship" and i'm just sitting there with my head thinking like..."if you really have a good relationship that'll last a long time...shouldn't you not work for anything? shouldn't you just both be happy to see eachother and feel like you're still on your first date always??" hmmm...that must be the sappy part of me.

drink that was not even mine, but i was told to drink it anyway hah~

so yeah~ this dude has been expressing interest in my friend since we've met him and on the car ride back, my friend and i had like a cantonese/english conversation so that our sleepy ass vietnamese friend in the backseat wouldn't get us in the conversation.

the convo went along the lines of in cantonese/ semi english from me (lol)
friend: do you think ____ is interested in me?
me: seems like it
friend: what? (can't understand your cantonese).
me: it seems like it, a lot!
friend: what do you think about him?
me: i don't know. we both have only known him for a day
friend: ikr? and he asks us if we wanna hang out in vegas
me: yeah...i didn't really know how to reply to that. i was just like sure...
friend: he said some crap about going to clubs and i don't even club
me: i've never once gone clubbing
friend: i've gone clubbing once and it was a gay club
me: why is it that girls always go to gay clubs? why do they purposely dress nice and NOT go to regular clubs to meet guys and get free drinks?
friend: they don't want guys hitting on them. they like to go to take pictures or something hahaha.
friend: yeah...when i went it was like a miley cyrus night too~
friend: i use to to have the biggest crush on this guy and he turned out to be gay
me: i'm pretty sure every girl has had a crush or been rejected by a gay guy before hahaha...
friend: yeah totally, --some other story--

that was a gist of the convo...or what i remember...or sort of remember

the conversation later carried on to me and my outlook on relationships and stuff because my friend doesn't really know anything about my "love life"? some know that i've never had a significant other, some don't. shrug*

friend: so why haven't you had a relationship?
me: ...i don't know...i don't bother. i think it's mainly about being happy myself before anything. i just live life day to day and if i do happen to meet someone then sure, but it's more about us both being happy to be with eachother than anything. i don't want to work hard to maintain a relationship. i don't want to make myself unhappy that i can't find someone so i don't bother.
friend: well my friend thinks your cute?
me: yeah? well i know...lots of people think i am... *cocky bitch moment lol*

yeahhh...i'm pretty asexual and live my life in solitude, if you haven't noticed.
i spent the rest of my night thinking about how i am with myself...pretty much till sunrise...not healthy...mehh
but yeah~ that's my story. lol.

the day after that, i went with the same friends again but it was for their real estate class's assignment. we were suppose to play in the aquarium afterwards but my dumb friend didn't notice that the aquarium only had special hours on certain days so we just enjoyed the harbor before my other friend's friend came to join us for dinner. i was actually expecting ____ to be there and wanted to ask my friend like "you didn't ask me to come to surprise me that ____ was going to come too right?" haha he didn't though.

some of the skyscrapers in DTLB have really similar designs to buildings of DTLA (obviously same architects)...thought that was sort of neat.

the moon, queen mary, and part of a tree.

their assignment was to take public transit to LB so i was sort of the transit guide. go me for being a city geek right? i had no idea the line to LB would take so long because i've never taken the blue line...but part of the blue line was closed (probably due to expo line testing) so i got to ride a (what i call) caterpillar bus for the first time. bus rides are so rough compared to subway/ light rail rides...and that particular driver drove effin' fast...it was kind of a rush hahaha....

they look like this from the outside.

and the sun sets...~

i had islands for dinner. i had the hula burger which is like a mushroom and cheese type burger. yummers.

relationship stuff aside, i had like one of the best jobs at work where i just sit and watch kids watch tv and this one girl has like separation anxiety or something. she, for no reason, would just cry for her mom or dad and i can't really do anything about it because 1.) her parents probably send her there so they could work in peace or something and 2.) if she gets her wish, it'd only encourage her to cry more often at work so i basically wasted a dollar buying gummy bears and hoping she'd stop if she had candy but nope. i later basically had her sit on my lap and try to comfort her with my "plastics" (three 7th graders who like to hang around me). she later said she was hungry so i just got her a cup noodle for free and had her eat it and she'd take bites and cry at the same time. it was so strange. i had to be like "don't cry or you might choke".

she literally looks like a mess everyday because of all the crying and she's only in first grade. she has like really dark baggy eyes and it was funny...like she'd glance at me about to cry and i'm just like...uhhh...yeah....it was totally sort of like gollum from LOTR in a little first grade chinese/vietnamese girl. it was also kind of funny because that girl shares my last name and one of my "plastics" said "oh she's your daughter" and im like "ahah~no. my daughter would NOT be crying"...lol.

i can't remember anything else from work that was interesting. we made caramel chocolate graham crackers and it was pretty good but messy at the same time and a girl student in my class opened the fridge and kept asking "why do we have orange [label] milk? isn't red better?" and i'm like "well that one is healthier...reduced fat...but yeah, i like the red one too". i don't think she ever got that message because she repeated that question like three times.

i had dinner with a middle school friend on july 1st. it was time to catch up since i don't see her much but she's a graduate now with lots of free time so i guess we can hang out more though she's unemployed ATM. she still needs to get her paperwork processed with EPIK in order to work in korea so she's been bumming around or should i say partying it up because she's in miami right now.

our dinner.

outfit to dinner~

besides that i didn't really do much since my last entry. i watched a bunch of movies.

i've watched

easy A
ponyo
despicable me
burlesque
rugrats movie
rugrats in paris
tangled

i think that's it...i have megamind and i haven't watched it yet. i really liked ponyo, burlesque, and tangled. despicable me was a bit boring but i liked the storyline. the rugrats movies i've watched before but it was sooo long ago. i like the second one more because it has so much more depth like it was geared towards both adults and kids.

so anyway...my friend will be watching harry potter this friday with ___ lol. "maybe he's just really really friendly". but if he was, wouldn't he be texting with me too? he does have my number after all :P

i bought green lantern undies yesterday. i have like a grip of superhero undies now haha! i'm too cheap to collect CK undies, emporio armani, D&G, diesel ones, or whatever "luxury" ones they have *merong*. but whatever, fuck the rest. mine are cuter. it's totally like cameron diaz dancing in her briefs in the first charlie's angels.

some things i bought since my last entry.

the rest are just random pictures i've taken since.

i haz single eyelids.

happy belated canada day and independence day.

kay...i'm going to try and take some pictuers to make up for this tumblr photo challenge i'm doing and then work out. ciao~ i might post a body update thinger depending on how self concious i feel later on...it's almost been a month since i've posted that body i wanted lol.

i hate it when guys are like "hey you work out a lot?" and i'm just like "uhhh i try to?" because i don't want to sound like some cocky douche. in sarcastic land, i'd be like "no they're naturally broad, jesus christ".

on a random closing note: i went to walmart to buy sandwich meat for my dad and nyquil for myself because i've caught a cold and it's the law to check age when buying over the counter drugs here now, so the lady straight up asked me how old i was and i was like " ( '___' )...22..." and she's like "oh...you look younger"...lol ugh. even with my groomed eyebrows, mature style, "athletic" body...i still look like i'm a minor? lol...i also dislike being called cute because of this...i try SO hard to not be cute. *cry*.

and during dinner last friday, ___ asked me if i was still in school and i was like "yeah~" and what i was studying. i told him i'm majoring in political science and he told me i look like a lawyer...lol i thought that was interesting. i've always thought about it but i don't know...i don't think that field is meant for me. we'll see...when i start school.

and if i share my secret, you're gonna have to keep it. nobody else can see this.

2011-06-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

goodness gracious. i am so bored. i'm downloading "despicable me" as i speak. i had another movie to watch in mind last night but i totally forgot what it was today.

i have a baking class tomorrow to "teach"/ make something with the kids and i'm thinking of just getting brownie mix during my break because all the coworkers i'm cool with aren't around when i'm on break anyway. i weird the highschoolers out or something haha. we don't click. i also don't click with the younger staff members...heh i was thinking that or i was going to take the suggestion of one of my students where we'd just melt chocolate and have chocolate covered strawberries while we watched tv for the rest of the day. if my mom didn't throw them away, i might have some of that chocolate for melting in my fridge and we can totally just do that because i'm lazy.

our red velvet cake that rose to cupcake levels (that i almost burned because i did not believe it was completely cooked...it was like 97% cooked lol).

if there's anything else relatively easy to bake, please tell me lol. they did egg tarts last year. i could do that again but yeah...anything that doesn't require much ingredients and dish washing hahaha.

i only work 2 days this week. i feel sort of useless not working five days a week but i could also use this free time to catch up on sleep and have time for myself...hmph....gotta find stuff to do. i'm suppose to eat out with my friend this week, but iono~what if she bails on me yanno? not that i'd be some sappy pitiful bitch about it but yeah...i can't really count on people these days...

i was at the market yesterday and i had a little flashback at my first job where it was like

*me working the mens dept*
*customer comes with clothes*
*i ring up stuff*
me: *rang some item* these are 10 cents? ( i don't remember but it was really cheap AHAH and wasn't suppose to be)
me: faster. before my supervisor comes.
me: *makes transaction*

LUL. god i hated that place.

i have this kid in two of my summer electives and he's new to the country. i feel sort of inclined to be his buddy because he's only like 8 so tomorrow i'm going to tell him i can speak mandarin too and if there are any problems then he could tell me. it was funny pushing other kids from my class to play with him lol. i'm twisted...but i swear it was fun for all of us...lol

and there's this other little girl who i only see in the summer and she is SO SO CUTE. she should totally be like a child hair model. she rocked the straight bangs/ gogo yubari? haircut a couple years back and now she's rocking like a katie holmes bob. i need to take a pic. but anyway, she kept telling me how i looked better with brown hair and how my old haircut was better. it was so cute and hilarious chatting with a seven or eight year old little girl about hair LOL >___<. i was like "i wanna go back to brown....but my eyebrows are too dark! it won't match!" she is so cute and now i really wanna dye my hair again...lol. maybe i'll finally get that ash blonde dye to get the really rich brown color i wanted for like...ever.

i also ordered this commes de garcon (sp?) wannabe shirt i ordered from modnique.com on the 3rd and i still haven't received shipping confirmation yet. i hope to receive it this week. i feel so jipped~even though i know it would take 2-3 weeks, but it has passed that. T~T

i'm really writing this entry out of plain boredom with no direction of where i'm going haha so i'm like all over the place. i'll post some random pictures from this tumblr photography challenge i'm doing to pretty up my entry also.

i bought some clothes...mainly because i was bored at home and needed to get out lol...so bad, so bad.

i got a cuff/ bracelet? whatever this is called from ASOS on clearance. watched the "i wanna go" mv by britney spears yet? because i've been wanting to collect a bunch of like rocker style stuff for the longest time. this will be the first step, i guess...well besides the moto jackets i have.

i want this going on, but for a boy (of course) .

on a random note: my friend went to her femme fatale tour last friday. mad jealous, but i watched all her perfs on youtube already...i'll get my hands on a tour dvd if it does happen to be released.

i also destroyed my jeans even more since i watched the mv. lol...~ go hard or go home.

i guess these will be the pants i wear when i feel...like i'm the shit like megan fox and stuff...i should just buy a bottle of black cloth dye and dye them black now. lol i'll probably do a crap job and it'll leak off everytime i wash though so i shouldn't but can't cut any higher...they're already @ short-shorts levels. i suppose i could but mehh i'm pretty conservative. i should be like that chick i saw at the coffee bean with lisa. she was like very american apparel, UO style and hecka flat chested so she wore this like very loose fitted, draping tank with no bra and like high waisted and even looser fitted jeans. i was like woooah~

i also bought myself a light demin jacket from pacsun online...that i could later stud for 31.xx$ but i suppose i could've found one in a goodwill or something...but...ehh...

and i bought these capris'ish shorts for 15$ @ HM. i went there to look at this military blazer type jacket i've had my eyes on for the longest time. i found like 2 and i didn't really like the fit nor the length of either...sooo i looked at other stuff. i tried them on in the fitting room twice because i'm not sure of my HM sizing because they put so many numbers on their tags and i just don't know my size...so after my 2nd time...i was like..."okay...this size HAS to fit...otherwise i'll have to come back to return them next time" but they did. woot. just right. i can't get any fatter.

lastly, i bought this from pacsun online because i wanted to get the free shipping...i suppose if i like the fit that i'll keep it but i also have intentions on returning it just because i only wanted the free shipping. i'll have a denim onesie looking type outfits if i do happen to keep it lol. : )

yeeahh....i think that's it for my spending...
and here are just some random pictures from my room and around...lol/ tumblr

and now i just finished downloading "easy A" (my friend had a magazine with the main girl on the cover in her car and asked me if i thought she was pretty and i was like..."oh its that girl...from that movie...A+"...damn i'm stupid haha.)...okay i should like...shower and watch these movies to sleep. *yawn*

i'll leave with this text convo that makes me sound like i have problems.

if i don't get that new phone, i'm definitely getting myself a replacement tv soon -____-.

-edit-
4:06am...oh lawddd i just finished "easy A". that was a cute movie. clever title, love the parallels, and i love the storyline. now i'll go to bed feeling all fuzzy and day dreamy before i run my ass to work in like 7 hours. the main girl is sooo gorgeous. lol

and this pounding in my heart just won't die, i'm burnin' uppp.

2011-06-20T02:22:00.000-07:00

i wonder if i can type an entry in like 10 minutes. it usually takes me like an hour...lol. i need to get my cardio in. i've been seeing more definition in my chest. awesome sauce. now i just need this pudge and love handles to melt away. i did chin ups and pull ups for the first time in like half a year and my weak ass can't even do 2 right now...lol...i'll get back to doing consecutive pull ups and chin ups soon!! AHHH but for now...my arms are still store and throbbing.

day 1 of summer camp at my workplace starts tomorrow. i'm scared and excited at the same time haha. i can't wait to see the kids i only see during the summer. it'll be my third summer camp at my workplace...eck D:

i'm on summer break now but i haven't done anything exciting or anything. i went around los angeles with lisa on wednesday because she had a job interview in hollywood. it was really sudden. it basically started with a text (i sleep beside my phone).

i'm SUCH a good friend, no? lol...kidding. barely anyone ever makes plans with me so i'm glad to have gone anyway. i'm actually really glad to have a friend like lisa because even with her boyfriend and her bestfriends, she still texts, chats, and bothers to hang out with me. she mailed me the cutest card for my birthday too with a super nice and thoughtful message. i'm so glad to have met her and befriended her in highschool. i was even more glad to know such a kind hearted person because when we were sitting on the subway train heading to union station and this homeless man sat infront of us, she handed him her chewy bar. i asked her if i should hand him my own little breakfast bar too but she was like nahhh. i really should've though because when we got to union station, this other man handed the same homeless man his own food. i think he was a metro worker too, not sure but i really love the hospitable things i witnessed that day. i'm always like...ehhh fuck everyone. care for myself...blah blah, but things like that really brightens up my perception of things.

here are some pictures from that day. (both lisa and mine)

i look like a mess :e ...wonderfully "skinny looking" mess. THAT was a trashcan because that effing coffee bean was packed with tourists and i did NOT want to stand outside as my face was melting off (literally).

hollywood/sunset ...the area of lisa's interview and this was where i waited. i sat there first...and this elderly man brushed off the area before sitting and i was like..."oh man *gets up to see if i'm sitting on dirt"....but i was like mehhh...whatever. he kind of looks like the old senior guy from "UP" doesn't he?

my crappy picture of this iconic landmark

lisa's

touristy mall...sort of the times square of hollywood but suckier? jennifer lopez had a little free concert in that open area i photographed like a couple weeks earlier...or maybe a month back.


we had no idea the green lantern premier was going on that day lol. it's funny when i watch tv and i think like "oh all those people are really there to support their fav celeb" and now i realized that it's in a touristy area and tourists basically get their fill of the celebrity sight seeing through that...smart....but i really did see some like white girl ryan reynold fans sitting on the street reading whatever magazine he's featured in.

the premier was good for us though! HAHA because everyone was literally on the street waiting for celebs like ryan reynolds and blake lively to show up. lisa and i got to use this huge like lunchables advertising thing where you get to take a pic and email it to yourself. we both look effin' fat here so i covered our fatness with the smiley lol. i like my eyebrows here lol.

iced tea lattes...very...watery...could barely taste the tea.

i want an instax camera!! T___T....but who would i take pictures with anyway...no one ever hangs out with me -__-

before the hollywood thing...i was figuring out how to properly destroy my jeans...and it was very hard...thank god i tried it on a pair of skinny jeans i don't fit in anymore LOL....-__-

destroyed this pair. i actually made an entry about the holes i found on them like a loong time ago. i should find it lol.

yeah...now i TOTALLY destroyed it lol. atleast it looks less weird...lol

do i need one more hole?...lol...maybe?

i also bought a dremmel and like...3 superhero briefs...but i don't really think anyone really needs a dremmel. they could just use sandpaper if they want to like "age" the pockets and stuff.

lisa's pic of the green lantern symbol/icon?/logo?

my elbows/early dinner? loveletter took away the weekday specials because it's summer...BOO!

i've been here like 3 times and i don't know why i still post pictures of this place

sooo i was looking at this model with looks that i could literally murder for and as always i'm on thefashionspot to look at model profiles and noticed he has one of my tanks hahaha. i was a little surprised because usually models wear expensive designer clothes because they're basically given to them...

lyden james

moi~ and my five dollar tank, lol

sooo yeah...i'm finally free from being responsible for my class of devil children/ 2nd graders. i'm so relieved LOL. here are some pictures of our final days of school.

oh my god~he's taking pictures of us!

my cutest boy student and one of the cutest little boys i've seen in my life by far lol. i love his full eyebrows and raspy little voice. he has the cutest personality too. he's not very photogenic though...it's weird because all the pictures i've seen of him, don't look like him in person lol.

i always thought this kid had attention problems, but it turned out he is actually hearing impaired and got hearing aids towards the end of the school year. sweet boy but can be stubborn and annoying as hell. you should've saw him on the last day of school. i had this netbook because i was bored and was reading the news and he kept INSISTING that i go on youtube. this persisted on FOR HOURS. i'm also aware that he's practically sniffing the cow's butthole LOL. that was his favorite "quiet buddy"...mine is the bulldog....which i've told the kid above that he looks sort of like HAHA.

5 hours of kids with no homework, no lesson plan, no nothing...so i let them play board games as long as it was relatively quiet...and i did this to pass time....oiii lol :x

this super sweet kid gave me a cupcake and caprisun because it was his birthday. no one really likes him because he's just pretty much fat and "disgusting" looking but it doesn't really seem to phase him. so admirable. i felt like such a kid again with the cupcake and drink lol. usually its like coffee and a burger.

like my retarded big mac?

sooo anyway, i might be getting myself a new phone this summer YEAHHH! and i know it's bad of me to say because my current phone isn't even a year old yet. i got it in october but it's just not up to par and pisses me off at times. i really do make the best of it though i swear T__T lol. sprint announced the motorola triumph to virgin mobile. it's basically everything i wanted! 4.1 in screen, 1ghz snapdragon processor, 512mb ram, 2gb HD/ROM which is expandable to like 32gb, it has a graphics processor, 5mp camera that can record 720 HD vid, front facing cam also...i'm such a greedy tech geek. BUT YES. I WANT THIS PHONE NOW!!

it'll be such an awesome upgrade. i'll just miss the physical qwerty for when my touch screen pisses me off.

i had my mommy help me cut my hair since i wanna save money for this phone LOL. she did a good job because i was expecting her to mess up and make me go all short after all this time growing out my hair.

i miss the back of my head though T__T

but whatever. i like change and need change.

i bought these shorts from H&M since they're cheap (for a guy). they fit just right and i could roll up the bottom (see the line).

I BOUGHT IT FROM THE H&M IN THE BACKGROUND. ON THAT SAME DAY. lol.

i also bought a bunch of useless stuff from drugstore.com but yeah...*rolls eyes*

that's all. ciao. i'll reread after i shower to fix my retarded soundingness.