I went bowling two Thursdays ago and I sucked really bad. I couldn't even get past 100. I blame it on the fatigue from my run hours prior to meeting up at the bowling alley. I didn't want to lose out on a workout day, so I have no other choice. I also had to run in the afternoon since running a the park in the evening sucks nuts. This meant that I would get even darker so I ran shirtless in hopes of evening out my racer back tan, but that didn't happen (heh). I am, however, pretty tan right now.
But going back to the bowling alley, I was with only one person who I was familiar with and everyone else is kind of a stranger, but I went for the sake of bowling anyway because I don't want my bowling shoes to just collect dust. The rest are friends of that one person and one of them is a guy I've known for like two years now. We've only hung out like maybe three times in those two years so the last time I saw him was last month where he humorously said "still buff I see" to me, after I greeted him. I'm not usually bad with names so I didn't forget his. He actually remembers my name which was kind of neat too, but yeah. On Thursday, he said "how's life?" during the game while waiting for our turn to bowl and I was all fumbling it like "good. no, not really. not as exciting as yours". I don't know. I can't compare. He's like two social classes above me and he's only like 2~3 years older than me. We're soooo not the same people. I don't go on trips every year nor drive a luxury car. I don't have Louis Vuitton wallet nor a random wad of cash on me at all times. Interestingly, he replied something along the lines of him just living life and stuff. It got me thinking about how I should be approaching life too.
It brings me back to my Political Theory/Philosophy class where my professor would talk about political views and living in the past or present versus the future. I don't ever want to dwell on the past so that's out of the picture, but there was a point to the lecture. Should you be planning for your future? Or should just live in the present because the future is unpredictable? I mean, I could be dead in like two years and haven't really done anything to live my life. I'd like to be financially responsible, but I also want to be spontaneous and enjoy what is now. Oi~ why is life so complicated. Why does growing up suck?!
I eventually got up, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and made my way downstairs to greet my auntie, uncle, and little cousins. I noticed that they already had coloring sheets printed out because that's the only method my brother knows how to keep them out of his room (thanks to me). I also noticed my little boy cousin can color within the lines now and that he can even write his own name. I don't even think he's in kindergarten yet (or maybe he is. he was an infant in 2008). Funny thing is that he would write his name all odd. It would state "on Jacob Lee do" on all his papers. I was like, "why do you write 'on' and then 'do' beside your name? It should be like *covers those words with my thumbs* this". He would just be all cute and quiet about it and then followed me into the kitchen because I hadn't eaten yet. I got the remainder of my single serving cake I bought from Albertson's the previous day and made myself some instant coffee. He then started asking me questions (in Cantonese. All our conversations are in Cantonese.) about everything I'm doing like "what's that" to everything. I'm like, "I'm making coffee" and he would ask me how to make it and I would reply like "there are several ways but I'm using hot water for this one" and he touched my mom's instant coffee pouch on the kitchen table and told me that it was coffee too. I was like "yep! you smart boy" and surprisingly, I wasn't annoyed with all his inquiries because it's just what kids do since they don't know any better. He's so bright. He actually kind of made my morning after thinking about the whole present/future thing. He made those worries go away for the time being.
What really amazed me was that he only visits once every couple of months and when he followed me into my room, I asked him if he wanted to play any games and that the only problem was that I only have them on my phone. He declined and told me he wanted to resume watching the movie he watched last time (which was UP!). He unintentionally had his way of making me feel like brain functions aren't as great as they once were because the last time he came to my home was over a month ago. I need more stimulation in my life, man. Oh, it also didn't help when I wanted to set a good example by speaking good Cantonese but I just end up with Chinglish. I was like, "个热水帮MELT个咖啡”...while making coffee *face palm*.
Well anyway, I'll be back a work in a matter of weeks. The sleeping in has been great, but reality is slowly falling back into place. I didn't do as much as I thought I would but there's time (granted I don't die a sudden death). My body is no where close to what I hoped it'd be. I didn't venture into the city as much as I had hoped. Class right now isn't any easier, but I'm glad I only have it once a week.
Most recently on our bi-weekly hangouts, Lisa and I went to a cafe that I thought she had already previously gone to, but she didn't. The food at MJ Cafe and Tea House in Rowland Heights was pretty average but I loved the massiveness of the extra large sized drinks. Typical large sizes don't usually do it for me. ahah. My extra large sized milk tea was only $4.50, I think. That's around the price of a large near home. The place reminded me of the forever gone Cafe Xpress because of the decor but the staff reminded me of the staff at Cha for Tea, lol. Ugh, I miss Cafe Xpress and their free milk tea refills. *cry*
Afterwards, we ended up going to Round 1 because it's only, like, across the street. I also have a play card so it's not like we'd just go there and do nothing. What I don't have is my Dave and Buster's one, but I rarely ever go there anymore so I don't really care. My other friend has it and I don't even know if she lost it or not. I am not sure if the card is linked to my e-mail address either, so I could transfer my points and stuff to a new card. Oh well. I effing love the cuteness of the prizes in their claw machines at Round 1, but I suck so much nuts at them. Playing them is a waste of money. Oh well...who needs cute stuffed cats anyway?! I'm grown! ; ____________ ;
|It's an EFFING SNAKE ZODIAC CAT!!|
|It's EFFING CATS DRESSED UP AS OTHER ANIMALS!!|
Lastly, I was reading this article about how deceptive before and after pictures could be and found some really good quotes to stand or live by. I mean, most of these came to me by realization, but it's nice to read someone else basically saying the same thing you are experiencing.
"The reasons these programs become so popular is because they are presented and marketed very well. These marketing campaigns use testimonials and before-and-after transformation photos. Before I claim it's all bullshit, I want to make it clear that there are definitely some very impressive, genuine physical transformations out there. What I do take issue with are the transformations that are manipulated with Photoshop, professional lighting, postures to degrade or enhance their look, pro tans, sucking in or pushing out a bloated belly or flexing muscles vs. not flexing to obtain an optimal look.
In my opinion, these photos are selling false or exaggerated promises of what 90 days, etc., of their program can achieve. Long-lasting results take years of consistency, hard work and dedication. Results that happen quickly are often temporary, and this is another factor that needs to be taken into account when looking at these transformations. Did the individual cut calories to starvation levels or cut out entire food groups to reach a very low body fat percentage for the photo shoot, only to rebound a few days or weeks later? This must be considered when setting your goals and expectations based on someone's program."
"What's my point? Don't try to look like anyone you see in a transformation photo. Be inspired, but don't be disappointed if you don't see yourself the way you see those models. Being tricked into eating low-calorie diets and doing endless cardio is a recipe for fat gain, especially in the long term. Forget about the quick transformations and focus on a life of healthy eating, well-managed stress levels, quality sleep and plenty of movement. Spend time with people who have similar goals and values and take time to appreciate yourself the way you are right now. Don't beat yourself up if you eat a cookie, just enjoy that cookie and everything else life has to offer.
We all spend too much time sucking in our guts, trying to look the way we think society thinks we should. Don't waste any more energy trying to compete with everyone else.
It's all smoke and mirrors." -- Seduced by the Illusion: The Truth About Transformation Photos by Andrew Dixon (Huffington Post)
I've bolded the parts I thought were important. I felt like I'd be leaving out too much if I didn't paste the rest of the other stuff (which was almost the entire article). I've been seeing people replace their meals with juices over the past couples of months and swearing it's like the best decision they've ever made in their life, but it's not like they can't lose weight the conventional way by healthy eating. I, for one, could never give up enjoying food. People are so quick to expect results and I think the article illustrates how deceptive short term workouts and diets can be. I'm far from getting the hot body I want, but I've long accepted the fact and am willing to work for it. I don't torture myself by eliminating the good tasting things in life completely and just make more conscious choices. I've also learned to like veggies more but I'm far from being a health nut. The point I'm trying to make is you shouldn't torture yourself, I guess. If you make it a lifestyle change and keep at it, you'll eventually get there. And if you decide to TREAT YO SELF and binge, you won't feel as guilty either because your body won't just instantly bounce back to being more jiggly.
I mean, I could totally say "omg! guys! I've been working out so hard. look at my results!" and post these for the sake of attempting to get more attention.
|This was me in 2007. I don't know why my eyes look all gross. I look like I'm sick in this.|
|Look at my friggin' arm!|
|I took speech class like a looong time ago and our professor made everyone record themselves on VHS. I wonder if I still have mine, lol. The date is wrong on the video though. It was recorded between 2007 and 2008|
|I don't even know how old this is. Probably between 2005-2006.|
Also being the crazy person that I am, I was looking for Samoyed breeders in California and found two that seem active online, so I will probably get in contact with them next year. All the other ones had really tacky and outdated websites so I assume they aren't active or something. I'll either be driving like 6 hours up north or almost 2 hours down south to get my fluffy white lion. *cry* OH! And to add, did you know there's a thing called "barkbox" which is like those beauty box things you get monthly, BUT FOR DOGS?! HOW FREAKING CUTE IS THAT?!